Images of my past...

time pls fly by..

2008-10-05T13:14:00.003+08:00

feelin damn sian now..bking in like a few hrs time..the feelin really sucks..noeing tt u'll b returnin to the "cursed isle" where things happen for no damn apparent reason..kena punished for no reason..being made to do exercise even after a damn freakin tiring day while other platoons r resting..sucks like shit man..juz wish these 2yrs will juz go by..fly by..best still..teleport by if possible..

it always seems tt i will go into an emo mood on bk in day..duno y..the feelin juz feels damn *bleahx*..duno how to describe it..feel like cryin? dying? juz cant b bothered? its juz so many emotions at once..quite "explosive" feelin actually..i miss the freedom i use to hav..or rather..im longing for tt freedom i use to hav..really really really hope tt i'll get an 8-5 vocation..it juz kills me to b like a "chalet" yet not "chalet" place..irks..u r expected to know everything from like 50% info and when u ask u r told u'll b briefed later (which nv happens) or u r told to use ur common sense -_- den when things not done to expectations..u kena punished..stoopid aint it? n moreover..smth happened during tis wk..where we were "accused" of smth we did not do..we r already doin our best..den smth happened to our comrade..n we r blamed for it when the punishment was not smth we asked for..long story short..i felt really angry n wronged! stoopid..guess its true..some ppl there lost their heart somewhere in the jungle! u wana motivate us? DO IT ANOTHER WAY! NOT BY MAKIN US FEEL GUILTY! bleahx..main thing..tekong sucks..army sucks..NS sucks..

but to tink of it..3wks hav come n gone..ppl say it fast..i kinda agree..yet the duration to get thru it felt longer than tt..well..on the positive note..3wks r gone..10more wks to POP..cant wait for 9/12/08..but im sooo NOT lookin forward to field camp..no bath for days..powder bath only..i tink i'll die >_< crappy shit man..wadeva..aniwae..gotta go pack for shitty army now..cant wait for the next bk out..

~can i travel thru a time machine?~

i wan outta army..

2008-10-01T12:39:00.002+08:00

freedom? wad is freedom? according to answers.com ---> http://www.answers.com/freedom ......sigh...i wish i could juz wake up 2find tt i juz awoke from a long sleep..a long long 2yr sleep..n find tt my army days r over..if only i could..17days in tekong wasnt fun at all..missin home n all..n well..2nite im goin in again..but will b out on sat..hopefully..unless smth horribly goes wrong..which we all certainly hope not..

2wks r over..another 11wks to end of BMT..*sigh*..i wan outta army..

~i juz wan my freedom back..~

The day..

2008-09-12T03:14:00.003+08:00

the dreaded day has arrived..in juz another 7hrs i hav to report to pasir ris interchange to b sent off to an offshore island where "boys become men" (wad a load of nonsense though)..bleahx..filled with emotions now..sad..frustrated..sian 0.5..scared (cuz i duno wad to expect in tis new chapt in life)..happy (well very slight cuz my consolation is to go there n lose weight)..

its been really fast tt time flew by..i grad from poly..den worked awhile..n nxt thing i knew its my day of enlistment..sigh..i wish i could juz sleep and wake up to find myself 2yrs into the future..n tt everything tt im goin thru now is juz a dream of my past..o well..back to reality..i hav to face 2yrs of tis nonsense head-on..although it has disrupted my plan to go into NAFA..but i wun let it hinder my dream..I MUST PLAY MY GUZHENG WELL (although i juz started out) AND GET INTO NAFA! afterwhich..I WILL PLAY MY MUSIC..SPREAD MY MUSIC..N TOUCH THE HEART OF PPL..i wun let some silly 2yrs nonsense take away my dream..

aniwae..havent been bloggin here cuz i found somewhere else quite fun n interesting..machiam bloggin..plurking! hahax..go here --> www.plurk.com
if u join as a member..add me! my nick is seraphicwings..hahax..

aniwae..i better go n sleep..hav to wake up early tml..for its a start of a whole new chapter for me..until den..good nite..

~life? dreams? i wun let any obstacles in life to block me from my dreams..~

CONCERT!!

2008-08-09T02:14:00.004+08:00

hahax..yea haox i noe i haben posted awhile..hahax..juz saw my tagboard XD bleahx..keep wanted to blog but like i at work abit hard to type away on tis screen here..den when i reach home im already halfdead..n i had enuf of the com..so ppl..if u dun c me online juz try to offline msg me..i may or may not b there..

aniwae..CONCERT COMIN UP ON 17TH AUG!! *EXCITED* but only thing is that im dying with the cheena-ness n the crazy tongue twistin chinese songs..u can go youtube and check out on Yellow River Cantata..yes..we are singing that song with 5 other choirs..really good exp for me cuz i can kinda feel the pain n sorrow of the Chinese people when the Jap army invaded China during World War II..sigh..such a hard life they led during war..soooo LETS LEARN TO LOVE MORE AND FIGHT LESS PEOPLE N MAKE THE DREAM OF WORLD PEACE COME TRUE!! (i feel like Miss Universe suddenly XD)

however..during the pracs i get really pissed off cuz for some funny reason it seems that age does not go along with exp and performin standard or smth -_- its really pissifying (yes i made tt word up) when ppl cannot folo the conductor or juz forget posture in singin or forget performin instructions given during previous pracs..*rants on* i really dun understand!! n im here puttin in my energy in reachin those high notes only to end up wastin my energy cuz somebody screws up..bleahx..den im left gaspin for air T_T gets on my nerves lo..its already hard to put urself into the shoes of the World War II Chinese cuz we r from a totally different era and nationality in all..although race is the same la XD bleahx..den when there are mistakes..i can c tt the conductor damn tu lan..but he tries his best to keep his cool n say our mistakes in a jokin way..hats off to u lao shi..argh..wadeva..im gona do my best n my part n hopefully on the performance day itself everyone will do tt and make the concert a success..

o well..but in any case..it should b enjoyable..as any concerts i performed or attended..JIAYOU MR CONDUCTOR! i noe handling 6 choirs and 2pianos aint gonna b easy! lolx..

~CHINESE WORDS!! *SCREAM*~

reality check

2008-07-10T12:46:00.002+08:00

time for some pondering n reality check during the remainin few mins of my lunch break (yes..now i hav to work in the freakin mornin..damn office tasks..) so i juz read cle's blog..but the business world being 2-faced n stuff..well..aint the world like tt? in order to survive..we hav to like put up a facade n juz do stuffs in the office even if we dun like it? thank goodness i could experience life in a lab during my internship (which i can live by very painfully cuz repeatin experiments day after day aint fun along with the reports n stuffs..) and while workin here in NLB office..n now i can truely say tt..I CANNOT LIVE IN AN OFFICE ENVIRONMENT!! hats off to u office ppl!! i really duno how u guys can sit in front of a com n juz stare away n type type type..n do all those miscellaneous (not to say "dislike-able") tasks..bleahx..

so back again..all the more i will go to NAFA..life aint gonna b easy unless i make it "big" n become a well-known musician or smth..if not i must hav a good number of students to teach..oh well..at least i enjoy wad i aspire to do..music juz touches the heart..doesnt it? its all humanistic n enriching..lolx..lets hope Singapore will start to boom in the arts industry..i need more freedom than juz sittin at a desk or in a lab..i'd rather practice a piece for like hrs over n over than to sit in a lab or an office for like a few mins..i really mean it..tts how much i dislike n startin to dislike workin in a lab or an office..

o well..lemme start gettin back to work..BLEAHX..NICK!! TAHAN!! TAHAN!! JUST TILL END OF AUG N U'LL B FREE FROM OFFICE WORK!! MWAHAHAH!! (den after which i'll lose my freedom to the nation..kns -_- noooooooooooooooooooo..)

~So i say..thank you for the music..for givin it to me..(ABBA)~

fragile is life..

2008-06-26T16:54:00.003+08:00

been tinkin actually..cuz..for the past 2wks or so..i hav seen, heard, pass by or wadeva..main thing..i indirectly encountered alot of events abt ppl passin on..n it struck me..the fragility of life..(tis post abit emo i noe..hahax..paiseh..but i woke up to a conclusion is life)

we all hav goals in life..yet there will always b obstacles blockin us..like my sudden dream to pursue music..my dad tinks i wasted 3yrs of my life in poly if i were to pursue music..my mom tinks its juz gonna b a hard life teachin music in future..she sounds neutral..but..i noe she aint too keen on tt idea..*sigh* but den again..i rmbed tt its my life here and im here to lead it..no matter wad happens its all in my hands..my destiny is for me to form and control and not the other way round..

so i woke up to tt resolution..i shall live my day to the fullest everyday..in the sense tt im happy..do wad i wan and not wad others wan me to do (i dun mean not fulfillin tasks given in a job..) lets live our lives the way we wan it..the way which we r happy..so that the happiness can rub onto others and the happiness will spread eventually..

~death is inevitable..yet..life is eternal..~

COSPLAY!

2008-06-02T17:23:00.002+08:00

OK..TIS IS OFFICIAL!! hhax..i'll b goin for my 1st COSPLAY in the 1st wkend of july..hahax..i'll b goin with charmaine as Marluxia and she is goin as Zexion..lolx..they are characters from Organization 13 from Kingdom Hearts..OMG!! IM SOOOO EXCITED!! HAHAX..but it'll b a hole in pocket again *sobz*..u wana noe how they look like..pls go google it..hahax..paiseh..cuz after bad experiences with uploadin photos into my blog..i got sooo pissed tt i got lazy to upload pixes le..hahax..ok i shant b so bad..i'll put the search results for google here..hahax..

Marluxia: http://images.google.com.sg/images?um=1&hl=en&q=Marluxia

Zexion: http://images.google.com.sg/images?um=1&hl=en&q=zexion

YAY!! im goin for my 1st cosplay event!! hahax..hope i dun die in the heat of the costume..hahax..possibly it has to b made out of PVC >_< unless i try to find synthetic leather..lolx..bleahx..but wadeva..I JUZ CANT WAIT!! HAHAX..now our wigs will b ordered n shippin after certain stuffs r ironed out..n VOILA!! time for costume makin!! XD

ok..time for me to slowly pack up..meetin shi min for dinner!! mata ne!~

~EXCITMENT!!~

GRAD TML!!

2008-05-23T01:39:00.002+08:00

*woot* tml grad ceremony!! MWAHAHAH!! FINALLY GETTIN TT PIECE OF PAPER I SLOGGED MY ASS OFF FOR 3YRS!! LOLX..n after gettin tt piece of paper..i can tell the world i hav minimal exp in the biotech field..lolx..n movin on to pursue my "Music Dream"..totally different right..actually i wanted to pursue music long ago..juz tt after my 'O' levels i was tinkin of practicality in future..but it dint occur to me tt being a musician will b in a way practical if i enjoyed wad i was doin..apparently..after 3yrs..i realised that science is REALLY, SERIOUSLY, 100% GUARANTEE CHOP my 2nd choice in life..cuz i'd rather do smth i enjoy..n slog my life out..but at least i slog it out happy..rather than killin myself under the stress in a lab..guess now my diploma will only serve as a fall back in future..o well..

sometimes life is juz strange isnt it? it throws u smth unexpected..like how being a musician juz suddenly hit me..well..lets c wad i'll do abt tis..life of music..WATCH OUT AS I'LL B ENTERIN UR WORLD!! MWAHAHA!!

~i wana b well-known musician (big dream aint it?)~

rants AGAIN!!

2008-05-16T16:06:00.003+08:00

LOLX..seems tis mth of may is my mth for rantin..really loads of bad encounters where frenz drop into my "acquaintances" category..such a sad thing right? but i dun really giv a damn..cuz i cant blardy fark care abt ppl who dun tink b4 they act..tis time..its juz someone from CO..the tot of tis PARTICULAR PERSON juz makes me SICK! the feelin is REVOLTIN!! to me it seems u hav NO MANNERS!!! do u noe wad is plain IRRITATIN!?!? *flares up*

number 1..i dun blardy hell care which other CCA u r from..so wad if u from taekwando!? DO I LOOK LIKE A DAMN PUNCHIN BAG TO U!??! NO RIGHT!??!?! U DAMN CHEE BYE!! SO FUCKING STOP PUNCHIN MY STOMACH WHENEVA U C ME YOU BITCH!! although i dun hav the amt of trainin u hav..BUT..i can humiliate the shit outta u if u force me to..SO! DUN PUSH IT ANYMORE SISTA!

number 2..seriously..ur attitude makes me sick..i really wonder how u grew up..where u got ur character n traits from..where in the world did u learnt to b such an IRRITATIN biatch..u blardy hell wana play the guzheng?! den freakin hell get ur own nails! CUZ I WUN LEND MY STUFFS TO SUCH A REVOLTIN PERSON LIKE U!! and im not ur servant..sooooo..GO GET THE GUZHENG URSELF IF U WANA PLAY IT BITCH!! if u too lazy..DEN STICK TO UR OWN DAMN INSTRUMENT!! reminder again..mayb i should spell it out cuz english is too hard for u to understand..I. A.M. N.O.T. Y.O.U.R. S.L.A.V.E. U.N.D.E.R.S.T.A.N.D.!?

number 3..RESPECT OTHER PEOPLE'S PROPERTY!! ESPECIALLY PERSONAL INSTRUMENTS LIKE DIZI!! u r such a loathe u get tt?! lucky i was walkin behind u n saw u stretchin ur hand out for my opened dizi bag...lemme ask u as simple question..DID U ASK ME FOR PERMISSION!?!? DID U?!!??!?!!? so when i say "don't touch"..LUCKYILY u listened..BUT..u gav me tt stoopid look on ur face..pls..pitiful looks work on me..but not in ur case..cuz..U ALREADY PISSED THE SHIT OUTTA ME!! GET LOST U DAMN WOMAN!! GO BEG SOMEWHERE ELSE!!

seriously..even yanning is more gentle, refined and more lady-liked can?! or rather..she is a lady..BUT YOU!?!? pls..i dun even call u a female can..cuz u juz make me SICK!! pray for urself tt u can find a time machine to go back in time n GROW UP PROPERLY LA!! aniwae abt tis post..i dun care if u read it n feel insulted..cuz u already tested my patience n u went over..u juz aint worth my time..which reminds me..since im here already shootin at u..i advise u to get deodourant..cuz either ur clothes were not dried properly..or u juz hav B.O. (oya..mayb u dun understand shortforms..BODY ODOUR!)

*phew* now tts out..aniwae..later gonna walk abt city hall area with sj, kit n tim (n probably kel) to find jo's bday prezzie! hahax..hope can find smth nice for her..lolx..

~i need a smoke..u really piss the shit outta me..~

im fine..

2008-05-12T01:17:00.005+08:00

hey all..thx to some of you for askin if i was alright..cuz u read my blog or smth..hahax..yes..im fine..its juz tt day had a bad encounter with someone over the phone..dun wana say it too much and i giv tt person the benefit of doubt n say tt he/she was juz str8 forward and i mayb juz took the words wrongly..

aniwaes..long story short..im no more in ndp..cuz i was encouraged to giv my spot up to other less active members in SSA and probably even potentially new members FOR SSA..hahx..well..actually i would hav chosen to leave earlier..but i was worried tt CMPB might wana trace if i really DID join ndp cuz i used it as a reason to defer my enlistment day..apparently i wrote in earlier before they sent me the enlisment notice..so me n my mom chanted for deferment n i got a date in sept..so anyway..my worries abt the tracin part was settled after tokin to a leader in choir n yea..thus chose to leave ndp..dun ask me so much le..im kinda tired to repeat the story..but i take tis as another challenge cuz there is a performance in aug too..after national day..so i kinda take it as i deferred my army cuz of the concert..hahax..n ya..the performance we r singing the Yellow River Cantata..u can go search abt it..ITS SUPER CHEENA CAN!! i tink sharon will like it cuz its like history of CHINA..like..ya..tts y so CHEENA..I SUPER NEED HELP WITH THE CHINESE WORDS!! cuz i cant friggin read the damn words..cuz its to blardy chim -_- plus some parts the song goes so fast i feel like i can bite my tongue..or my tongue gets tied..or worst..im afraid saliva may FLY!! XD

OYA!! NTU sent rejection letter liao..hahax..which means my % chance into NUS is SUPER DUPER LOW liao..kinda happy actually..duno y..but it juz means i can consider NAFA as one of my choices after army liao..lolx..

lolx..ok la..tts abt it..im fine..n yea still smilin!! n still crazily wild!! hehe..*evil grin* n btw..my impression of someone in choir has totally CHANGED for the BETTER!! hhaax..i used to hav negative tots abt him/her..aniwae..until next time..JA MATA!~

P.S. i used he/she and him/her cuz i dun wana pinpoint on the person..although some of u may noe them already..but i try my best to keep them anonymous here..

~NAFA NAFA!! MUSIC!!~

NODAME!!

2008-05-02T17:16:00.003+08:00

AHHHHHH!! NODAME CANTABILE IS SOOOO NICE!! my gawd laaa...all the more i wana pursue my music dream le..haiz..the drama is so touchin,so inspiring and soooooooo motivating!! XD

when i watch the episodes..i juz cant help but b feeled with this wonderful feelin..tis feelin of "THATS IT! I WILL PURSUE MUSIC!" its juz sooo OVERWHELMIN!! lolx..n im soo super envious of the pianists laaa..im damn rusty at the piano now..if ask me play a new piece i tink i will take like weeks to play it perfectly..CHIAKI ONLY TOOK A FEW DAYS!! *faints* super duper envious!! T_T

okok..time to slowly pack up..hahax..close to CLOCK OUT TIME!! hahax..den go find mom's day prezzie liao..seriously duno wad to buy for her cuz her bday is on the 31th! bleahx..oh well..guess will find smth la..ciao~

~i wana b a musician!! best is b a conductor!! MWAHAHAH!!~

apologies..

2008-04-29T16:47:00.003+08:00

im so sorry for the previous post for being like so super vulgar..was juz blinded by anger n disappointment..cuz mayb it wasnt meant to b an insult..but at tt pt of time it sounded like an insult to me n i juz could retain my feelings..i duno..mayb it was really my fault..my karma appearin in tis manner..but..den again..mayb it was a challenge to me..Buddhism is such a profound thing aint it? hahax..well..im taught to ALWAYS tink on the bright side of life..tts y i rarely get angry or down..

well..things always hav a solution..its juz whether we wan to do it or not..and every prob will hav more than one solution..again..its up to u to decide which path to choose..tis is wad i always tell myself n my frenz who needs help..

*chuckles* so it seems tt thing got really ugly here..but in any case..i'll still chase my dreams of being a musician..mayb a conductor even!! WATCH OUT FOR MOII!! MWAHAHAHAH!! NUS or NTU? i duno..but i really hav tt strong sense of pursuin music n join NAFA..but now..juz need to get through with stooopid NS! -_- *bleahx*

back to work again..juz suddenly hav tt tot to blog abt tis..huggiez people!!~

~life is abt music and music gives life..if the music dies..i dun tink i'll b livin either..~

wateva..

2008-04-28T23:01:00.004+08:00

im in such a "WADEVA" mood now..i hav to say tt tis post hav no intention to cause hurt directly or indirectly at someone now..mayb my words come out wrong..but the content is in my head..my fingers n heart r doin the typin now..i cant fuckin care!! cuz im PISSED, DISAPPOINTED & INSULTED!! (do pardon my vulgarities)

i lived up to my priciples as a Dragon baby..havin integrity,loyalty and trust..u can question these qualities i hav read in zodiac sources and wadsoeva places..but sadly..u crossed the line (whom ppl rarely crossed)..cuz u in some way or another..dint put ur words out properly..so many ways to say it..but it juz came out WRONG!! i can giv u answers..u can ask wad u wan..JUZ BLOODY TINK ABT UR WORDS PROPERLY B4 SAYIN THEM!! tink abt it..abt what an angry Dragon can do in stories..dun tink tt it will not happen in real life..cuz u juz made tt come true! like i said..u crossed tt rarely crossed line of mine..people hav made jokes abt me..say lame stuffs abt me..but i laugh it off..should i congratulate u tt u crossed tt line? or should i apologise to u for wad a pissed off and petty person will do? well..guess i'll pick..CONGRATULATION FOR STEPPIN ON A SARCASTIC DRAGON'S TAIL!!

lemme say smth..MUSIC IS MY LIFE..AND MY LIFE IS ALL ABT MUSIC..if u cant get it in ur head..DEN TOO BAD!! i felt so insulted when i was asked if my initial intention was to cause hurt and wadsoeva so music..tink again..wun it hurt me? do i look tt evil to u? i wanted to contribute to the greater good..yet im being looked upon another way..FUCK OFF!!

u can question my ignorance..fine..i take the blame for not knowin the rules..but lemme say another thing abt myself..i will only find out smth if the topic is of my interest OR in tis case..IF the practices clash..so either u tell me smth from the beginning..or u dun..u wan me to know smth..smack it into my face..i wont kill u..cuz my boilin pt is higher than u tink..

fine..i take the blame for causin most of tis..BUT..DUN COME FUCKIN BLAME THE WHOLE SHIT ON ME!! do i look like some gas tank which blows balloons up and burst them!? NO RIGHT?! do i look like a construction tool which makes molehills into mountains?! NO RIGHT!? SO DUN FUCKIN MAKE ME FEEL TT WAY!! cuz from my pt of view..things could hav been handled differently..and everyone has a small part of the mistake..being a sectional leader, workin in project groups and a prefect b4..there is no such thing as the WHOLE nonsense is on someone..U FUCKIN GET THAT?!?!

im seriously tinkin abt my future at tis pt..i already told my mom tt if NUS and NTU doesnt accept me..i'll consider NAFA..and now abt tis case..lemme juz say tt i juz bloody hell saved ur freaking ass from my mom cuz i persuaded her to cool down..im not being heroic here..im fuckin serious abt things my angry mom will do..cuz she aint takin tis lightly either cuz she is juz as disappointed and as angry as me abt how things were handled..either u go for some course to upgrade ur handlin skills..OR..LOOK B4 U LEAP! CUZ U JUZ STEPPED ON MY TAIL!

i duno..by the way things r now..its juz makin me sick!~

~wadeva..i cant fuckin hell care abt tis now..i hav my dreams to pursue~

SG FLYER!!

2008-04-28T13:38:00.002+08:00

GUESS WAD!?!? lolx..i went out with my family ytd evenin to the SG FLYER!! MWAHAHAH!! pixes will b on frenster/facebook..dun wana blog pixes here cuz very the mafan..hahax..me n my godbro was like undescribably EXCITED and like it was like in such a long time tt my cam actually was so active tt the battery area got heated up..thank goodness dint blow..hahax..but if it did died..den one more reason to get a new cam!! hahax..can u imagine like within tt 30mins i took like 100 over pixes?!?! i myself abit shocked XD so aniwae..

after sg flyer went for dinner at the chinese restaurant there..and after we decided to juz stroll abt the area..den we pass tis massage shop..Kenko or smth lidat..they like had tanks of these small fishes..which look really like some long kang fish..but no they r not! they r called doctor fishes..(duno wad is the scientific name la) wad service they provide? hahax..me n my godbro actually tried it out..u put ur feet in..and the nxt thing u noe..all the fishes will swarm to ur submerged part of ur leg and start eatin the dead cells..the feelin was like havin mini acupuncture treatment..hahax..damn ticklish at 1st den after it became rather relaxin..

hahax..aniwae..shall get back to work..ITS SO BORING TO WORK IN AN OFFICE!! BLEAHX..either i havent got used to it..or i juz simply dislike office jobs..*yawnz*..oki..back to work..ciao!~

~i wan a different job~

finally changed blogskin

2008-04-25T01:49:00.002+08:00

hahax..i changed my blogskin..very PINK right..lol..i like pink..and its so AYU!! hahax..doesnt matter..I LOVE IT AND EVEN U PEOPLE DUN LIKE IT DEN TOO BAD!! HAHAX..AYU-CHAN, DAI-SUKI!!!!!! >_<

lolx..ok tt was like erxin act cute moment..started my 1st guzheng lesson..was really fun actually..yet very hard..cuz i so used to lookin at score and hands movin left and right of the piano..but now is look at score den hands move up and down the guzheng..AND THE STRINGS ARE SO THIN!! *panics* aniwae..if NUS or NTU doesnt accept me..i must go all out to do well in guzheng and cont my music theory liao..cuz i wana go in NAFA and chase after my music dream..I WILL CATCH IT ONE DAY!! JUZ WATCH!! MWAHAHAHAH!!

tokin abt music dream..choir life got abit of hiccups..haiz..cuz of some misunderstandin ba..i tink cuz my mail was misleadin >_< bleahx..yet..there are so many possible reasons tt is my fault to begin with yet there are so many things tt people say im not totally at fault..drama-mama right..my life can become a short drama serial liao..(if i were to rake up the past la..hahax..den i tink tt one can come to match half of 真情) lolx XD so aniwae..i wan both sides of choir and NDP..yet tt shouldnt b the way..den things got misintepreted..den the molehill became a mountain..duno la..shall iron things out when i attend the nxt choir prac..cuz tis sun not goin..hehe..becuz......i'll......b.....

GOIN TO THE SINGAPORE FLYER WITH MY FAMILY!! hahax..must rmb to take my cam den camwhore with my godbro...lolx..and i'll post the pix into frenster or facebook..cuz i hate to post pix here..waste of my time and life XD

oki..time to koon..tml gotta work T_T nite nite!~

~i wish..i wish..i wish for money to drop from the sky XD~

GUZHENG LESSON!!

2008-04-09T16:44:00.002+08:00

YES!! FINALLY!! I CAN FINALLY LEARN THE INSTRUMENT I HAV BEEN WANTIN TO LEARN!! MWAHAHAHAHAH!! i'll b startin guzheng lessons nxt sat (19th apr)...den so good..the lesson in punggol den i from there after tt can go for ndp trainin liao!! hahax..hopefully brenda and mavis r home den can go tgt..lolx..

now dyin of boredom at workplace..(seems tt im always bored at owrk..ahhax..actually..im slackin now =X) suppose to walk around in the public area like an aimless arrow..waitin for ppl to use the kiosk..bleahx..den im suppose to go up to them and the reaction i get is as if im an alien or smth..with their faces havin the "LEAVE ME ALONE" look..so sad la.. T_T i so nice..so lovable and kind..*hears puking sounds in the background*..wadeva..aniwae..1 more hr to knock off! hhax..

back to the guzheng topic..i juz LOVE the sound of the guzheng..haha..actually it was my 1st choice over dizi..but chinese orchestra no guzheng section or rather no tutor..but wadeva..GUAN YUE SECTION ROCKS!! HAHX..WE R THE BEST! >_< haix..we should hav the best section award thing..den guan yue will claim tt prize..mwahahahahah!! MWAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

ok back to tt boring work..i shall juz walk out a few rounds and return to slack till knock off..haha..cheerios!~

~hungry..yet im feelin fat..*randomness*..YAY!! GUZHENG!! sponsors to help me buy a 1k guzheng?~

SO MA FAN!!

2008-03-24T16:10:00.002+08:00

wa lao..i part timer..tell me flexi workin hours..den still wana minus my lunch hr..HOPEFULLY NOT! bleahx..somedays i come in after lunch hour..wrote in my time sheet tt dint use the lunch hr..hopefully they still dun mind..bloody hell..nlb so much $$..pay me the $6/hr still so kiam siap..bleahx..I WAN MY MOOLAR..DUN MINUS ANYMORE LIAO!!NOW TT GOTTA MINUS LUNCH HR I GOT LESS MOOLAR!! *angst*

*chilled* argh..wadeva..after TPCO concert i would b freeier liao..den can work more..try to get tt 42hrs max a wk..hahax!! $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ den cpf still wana minus..BLEAHX..in the end the $$ i get skali less than my allowance when i was still in sch..tell u..i will bang the wall la! *got fired up again*

*chilled again* oya! I GOT SELECTED FOR NDP 2008!! MWAHAHA!! must pray tt i dun go in army b4 national day..so i can perform on tt marina stage thingy..like so fun lidat..hahax..o well..I MUST B ABLE TO PERFORM!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHH!!!~~~~~~

okok..time to get back to work..juz tt seeing tt bunch of numbers for too long can be rather boring and exhausting..seriously..try starin at a bunch of numbers for like 30mins..for me..my eyes went abit blurred..>_< okie..ciao~

~time to earn abit of cash b4 army..~

如果你还爱我

2008-03-20T01:34:00.003+08:00

歌曲：如果你还爱我
歌手：光良

我带着一颗疲惫的心走了　
我知道自己在你心里已不重要
虽然我们曾经相聚过　
也许对于你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆

我带着一颗沉重的心走了　
我知道自己没有勇气道别离
虽然我们曾经拥有过　
但是对于你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆

难道早以注定　
不能真正拥有你
难道我真心付出一切　
只为了承受孤单和寂寞
我知道你不敢对我坦白　
是不要看到我的伤怀
虽然你没有说要离开我　
我已经感到你不再属于我

如果你还爱我　
你不会对我如此的冷漠
又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊
如果你还爱我　
你不会对我如此的冷漠
我只能含着眼泪
默默的离开

~你或是我变了呢？我变了成熟或你幼稚呢?算了。。竟然对我有这种思想。。就结束了。。~

slackin time....

2008-03-18T11:59:00.003+08:00

-_______- 是bored de lor..真得太bored liao laaaaaaaaaaa..

nothin much to do 2day at work..actually did a task requested by my supervisor..den finish like duno how long ago..den i sms him nv reply..sooooo..juz sit here surf net lor..den decided to blog..hahax..

later goin to meet zi hao and crystal at bedok inter and buy stuffies den goin over to my place to prepare the food for the potluck 2nite at our "TPCO family" chalet at downtown east!!!! *woots* but tml got sectionals lor..gotta feelin sure cannot wake up de..

oh which reminds me..TPCO concert on 3rd apr, temasek poly auditorium, free seatin $6/tix..COME SUPPORT!! hahax..call me and get tix..

ok i shall go rot on some other webbie..waitin for lunch..HUNGRY LIKE SAI LAAAAAA..ciao~

~Listening to: 杀手 by 林俊杰

2years 9months 3days

2008-03-17T13:52:00.003+08:00

3days ago..

it ended..

lives changed..

time waits for no man..

time goes by so slowly for those who wait..

things will not b the same again but the experience was great..

~Madonna's Hung Up is juz ringin in my head~

GOT A JOB!! MWAHAH!!

2008-03-06T14:58:00.002+08:00

well..tis news is like 1wk late..i got the job tiong seng got me..hahax..it was like i got the job le..juz tt the interview was more like to settle admin stuffies..and u noe wad!??! tt Up your Service workshop got pushed back to like the 3rd and 4th march..bleahx..make me cannot work for like 2days..MY MONEY!! T_T i tryin to work for my own allowance for the nxt mth..cuz i tink tis way is more fair to my momma..now i no more sch le..so i tink i should b earnin my own $$ ba..bleahx..den now tt STOOPID cmpb tell me my enlistment date between june to oct..U TELL ME HOW TO PLAN ANYTHING?!?! 4MTHS!! stoopid army..waste of life and energy..wadeva la..i juz wana get tis over and done with..with the optimistic tot in my mind tt im goin to army for free gymmin sessions with a whole lot more of shit thrown into ur face.. >_<

aniwae..now im at work..in the office..takin a break..which i super needed cuz i was abt to fall aslp le..out of 1650 data to b entered..i hav entered 256 lines liao..so mean..i need another 1394 lines more!! O_o like so omg right?? and its all alpha-numerical..*eyes goes screwy*..well..i kinda like detailed and meticulous work..but i need breaks if not my eyes will go blur and my brain will go into standby mode *beep beep beep* *stand-by* XD well..another reason y i goin into sleep mode cuz the aircon so nice in tis cool wet weather..*yawnz*..ARGH!! I DUN WANA GO CHINESE ORCHESTRA PRACTICE LATER!! SO LAZYYYYYYYYY!!

YAY!! ITS THURS LAAAAA!! TML IS FRI!! which will mean..OUTING/PUBBIN WITH CHOIRS PEEPS!! *WOOT* super excited..hahax..duno y oso..mayb cuz i juz cant wait to dress up..it has been awhile since i dressed up..like erm..last fri?? >_< OYA!! last fri was feb 29th!! went to watch Leap Years..AHHHH SOOO NICEEE!! the show managed to give me goosebumps and make my eyes watery..touchin laaaaaaa..but i dun tink i can wait for 4yrs juz to meet a person for a few hrs..i will die of the lack of communication..in a r/s communication is one of the things is impt..but still..THE SHOW SO TOUCHIN!! the rich guy who really loves the bride lets her leave at the banquet in front of soooo many ppl to go chase after the person she really longs for..*tears well up in eyes*..and i so love tis quote, which gav me the goosebumps cuz its juz soooo touchin: "If you are not too long, I will wait here for you all my life." by Oscar Wilde......but again..i dun tink i can do tt..unless someone in tis cold world of ours can touch and warm tis heart of mine..

okok..back to data entry..another 1hr 45min till i head to sch..bleahx..cherrios~

~Music in mind: Merry Christmas, Mr Lawrence~

uni!~

2008-02-18T02:22:00.002+08:00

ok..i should b slpin now cuz gotta wake early to send in the documents for the uni application..but gotta post this now cuz i feel so itchy to blog..so long nv blog liao..so aniwae..I WANA GET INTO A LOCAL UNI!!!!!!!!! *bangs head against the wall* and the nxt few days are lined up with activites..

tml (mon): go sch do some stoopid oversea internship presentation abt reflections and wadeva nonsense..WASTE OF MY PRECIOUS TIME FOR A PASS OR FAIL GRADE..BLEAHX..

tues-wed: got this customer service workshop thingy which im goin cuz i wan tt cert for my resume n portfolio..I WANA BE AN AIR STEWARD FOR AWHILE IN FUTURE!~

wed nite-fri: help cle practice for his cello exam by being his pianist playing the accompaniment

thus-wadeva day: hopefully i get called up for the interview for the job introed by Tiong Seng (choir member..) THANK YOU SO MUCH TIONG SENG FOR HELPIN ME FIND A JOB..seriously..i was scratchin my head and tryin to find a job which will not kill me..(cafe cartel did tt..5bucks an hr for a WHOLE LOT OF NONSENSICAL WORK..pay DAAAMMMNN SUPER DUPER NOT worth the amt of work given..

also went to MOS last thurs..smth like a small celebration for unofficially graduatin and well..it was valentine's day tt day..nothin to do..sooooooo..called shi min out for some fun!! poor gal's bf is in japan..JAPAN LEH!!! i SSSSOOOOOOOOO wana go there!! anione out there wana pay for me?? XD well..tt aside..i tell u..im never..repeat..NEVER..goin to MOS on a wkday animore..wasted my $$$..wasnt as fun as i expected..the only room with life was the main arena..with R&B music..well..main thing..the atmosphere was juz out..REALLY outta sync..my fren say wkdays there is more life at zouk..but..wadeva..c hw..i'd rather go pubbin on wkdays..juz to b safe..go crazy on eves of public hols n fri nite/wkends..

ok..my tix to lala-land is here..nitez!~ (i notice my posts are like always b4 i go slp..cant blame..my com is my partner at home at nite!~)

~sentosa...*drags the "ah" vowel for an infinite amt of time*..I WANA GO SENTOSA!! also..anione for shopping???~

CNY CNY CNY!!

2008-02-06T16:07:00.000+08:00

ITS CNY EVE!! another 8hrs more till the new lunar yr of the rat! *squeak* XD

cant help it but to be so happy..after throwin in my mp report and mp logbook into the pigeon hole of my liason officer..there was a sudden lift from my body..tt sense of HAPPINESS, JOY n FREEDOM juz filled me up like an empty vessal (suddenly so literature-liked >_<) free free free..RELAX LE!! now only left like the stoopid poster to be done..must design over the wkend den go chiong and find some place to print out the poster..darn thing..make me spend money on this nonsensical thing..BLEAHX..rather use the money go SENTOSA! go CLUBBIN! go HANGING AROUND TOWN!! lolx..i need tt relax time and fun b4 i start army..which my freedom and my intelligence will be taken away..y int? i say y..cuzzzzzzzzz..my bestie after goin in..he although become more outspoken and more bold..for some funi reason..his int lvl dropped by abit..he tends to like..er..become abit more "bong char char" (duno how to put it in english from hokkien! XD) timo..no offence ya..but euu urself say tt army took away ur int lvl too! >_<

so aniwae..left like another wk till tt day..the BIG V DAY! anione need a date? XD (i sound so despo...) date for juz chillin? haha..i SHOULD b goin clubbin ba..depends on the music..and of course my cash flow =x which reminds me..ANIONE OUT THERE GOT LOBANG FOR A JOB..A GOODPAYIN ONE? HAHAX..o well..need to check my enlistment date 1st..PROVIDED i can check now tt is..

ok time to go..cant wait to get back to siglap where there is more movement and life there..hougang here is abit the dead..lucky i can use this com to blog..if not i will die of boredom! X_x cheerios!~~

~zhuo shou luo, you shou gu, shou na zhe luo gu lai chang ge....~

>_<

2008-01-29T01:28:00.000+08:00

ok i suddenly feel like time is juz movin tooooooooooo fast larrrr..........y? ok here is y...

1: i left like till nxt mon for me to chiong my report..but yet im bz on like fri, sat, n sun with like choir performances n further education/career talks..sooo...IM LIKE SOOO DEADMEAT!!

2: im goin to grad soon which means like 3yrs juz flew past..like OH MY GOD!! it felt like juz ytd tt i enter TP..grad oso means..ARMY!! THE START OF THE LIVIN HELL!! *faints*

3: its the yr 2008..and guess wad..uncle here is turnin 20..LIKE EEEKS!! THE START OF THE TWENTIES!! HOLY SH*T!! (ok i hav been usin this two swear words too much..must stop usin it!!)

i suddenly feel sooo flustered la..i wana stop to breathe but i cant..if i stop n breathe..i would feel more stressed when i carry on..cuz i used time for my own..must perservere now..juz another few more days for madness!! after 4th feb it would b..CHINESE NEW YR!! ANG POWS GALORE!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!! *evil grin* den its time to go sentosa, clubbin, chillin, etc. etc. etc.

den i shall take this opportunity do some publicity..Singapore Soka Chorus (the choir im in) is doin public performances the next few dates n venues:

-1st Feb (Fri, 8-10pm), Kreta Ayer Square (the stage is behind the Buddha Tooth Relic Temple opp. Maxwell Market)

-3rd Feb (Sun, 5-6pm), Bishan Junction 8 (at the open space on the 2nd or 3rd floor..cant rmb which floor la!)

-9th Feb (Sat, 3-5.30pm), Esplanade Concourse

-13th Feb(Wed, 7.30-8.30pm), Ngee Ann City Civic Plaza

do come down n support if u hav time ya! its smth not to b missed n im sure it will put u into the CNY mood! hahax.. ^_^

n oso..ANYONE OUT THERE GOT LOBANG FOR JOBS FOR ME TO WORK TILL I ENLIST?! i dun wana waste my life away..plus i need to pay back my bank for wad i owe myself..overspent like sai la *sobz*

so aniwaes..in case i dun blog in time for CNY..i wana wish all my family n frenz who read this post a happy n properous lunar new yr..wishin u all good health, safety, great growth, love n happiness n may u hav good blessin in this new yr of the rat! *squeak!* XD

okok..hair finally dry..the upside of havin thinned hair..15mins versus 50mins..lolx..cheers n ciao!~ ^_^

~gong xi gong xi gong xi ni!~

goes crazy

2008-01-21T01:11:00.000+08:00

ok..like damn long nv blog AGAIN >_<>_<

apart from the dumb stress..i hav also been gettin vertigo attacks..like suddenly the whole place cannot keep still..when im sittin still..den 5mins later ok..den suddenly after a few min kena attacked again T_T someone save me!! duno whether tis is stress or wad my mom say is tt im not gettin enuf rest plus i lost weight so my body is like goin bonkers..(personally..i dun tink its the losin weight.. XD)

after 4th feb..i already planned wad to do le..expenditure is low yet i can get relax n fun outta it..

List of things to do:
-Go Sentosa (make my Sentosa islander card worth its cash n get a good tan outta it)
-Mahjong sessions
-Clubbin/Chillin/Loungin/Bar-ing (wadeva laaaa..)
-Window shoppin n hangin like i always did b4
-(lots more to fill up b4 army comes..MUST TINK OF MORE!! XD)

okok..time to sleep..gotta wake up earlier to do my hair cuz i hav a NEW HAIRSTYLE!! MWAHAAAAAAAA!!!!

~*screams*~

STRESSES UP!!

2007-12-19T16:06:00.000+08:00

seriously..i finally found time and energy to blog..hav been away for toooooo long again..bleahx..blame it on the work >_< and ppl in my tag board..I AM HARDWORKING OK!! juz tt i need some chillax (chill + relax = chillax) time..non-stop in the lab doin things equals thinkin non-stop..which mean when got no chillax..i will go crazy..and frankly..i hav nv worked this hard or thought this much other than exams..TIRING!! T_T

another stress pt..clement wans me to b his accompanyin pianist..LIKE OMG LAAAAA..nv done this b4 in my life..hav been soloin piano and now suddenly ask me play accompaniment..damn scary lo..*stress*..worried make him fail >_< cuz kinda rusty at piano-in le..other than the pop scores which i usually play..classical has become another lvl liao..must shift back classical!! XD best still is if i can switch between the 2!! *dreams on*

so aniwae..now its 4.12pm..i havent had breakfast..havent had lunch..which means im freakin hungry..sooooooo..CIAO!~

~I NEED PURE ENTERTAINMENT!!~

its almost the end of the yr

2007-11-27T19:44:00.000+08:00

juz another 3more days till the last mth of 2007..like so fast leh..dint felt like 10mths and 27days go by..now slackin in the CO room..with the juniors practicin..while im takin a break from doin my proposal..music playin on my iTunes (thank goodness for earphones..if not cannot listen to my music) now is Wishing on the Same Star by Namie Amuro..very nice lo this song..really touches my heart..

proposal finally done..all tt needs to be done now is to let my supervisor see it tml and vet it b4 i can hand it in..damn tired looooooooooooooo..nv felt this drained b4..drain from work tt is..other than the time i worked at cartel..which was TORTUROUS!! bleahx..

went for my NS checkup ytd..got PES B..tot tt i was gona get PES BP de lo..den gotta go in for like wad..15wks..like EEYUR LAAAA..THANKFULLY..my BMI was 26.59 (i tink cuz i skipped breakfast!! HAHAX XD) 0.41 away from 27 lo.. 27= DIE!! X.x but aniwae..PES B is actually go in for 9wks nia..but cuz i failed NAPFA T.T so must go in another 4wks for some stoopid physical training shyt..bleahx.. >.<

7.54pm now..brain like movin into standby mode liao..my standby mode like gettin earlier and earlier..die laaaaaaaa..I NEED MY SLEEP..STOOPID MP/SIP..GIV ME BACK MY BEAUTY SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!! *angst* damn freakin heaty no matter how much water i drink lo..*bad breath*.. >________< den pimples........................*takes paper bag* T___________T
sian laaaa...must tong until end of jan..end of jan = end of MP/SIP = start of holiday..BUUUUTT..start of holiday = closin in of enlistment = START OF 2YRS OF HELL..NNNNNOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! *jumps around like a mad man* *bloodshot eyes* (ok i tink i abit to over drama liao..................)

ooooo..now iTunes playin TOP SECRET by Namie again..hahax..and crap..kena mental block..AIYA..KENA BLOCKED LIAO LA..shant crack my brains until needed..MWAHAHAHHA!! sooooooooo....till nxt time..ciao!~

~beeaaaauuutttyyyyy ssslllleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppp..any SECRETS anyone?? *looks around*~

in the cold "chamber"

2007-11-15T09:00:00.000+08:00

seriously..this place is juz torturous..imagine tt u r in the perfect condition which makes u sleep..BUT..U CANT!! cuz u r at work!! so u tell me torturous or not?! i writin notes, research for literature online, chattin or watchin anime..sometimes u can see the distance between the table and my head suddenly drop..disgustin but..tt day i juz rested my head on my arms on the table..and the nxt thing i knew is wakin up and lookin at the 50cents-sized drop of drool >.< i dozed off without knowin lo..juz giv me a pillow,bed and blanket..den viola! tix to lala-land..hahax..i dun mind my room as cold as here..i can sleep the whole day away..hahax..

i need to start writin my logbook!! but i damn freakin lazy..and i oso need to start my proposal!! but i bcuz of my laziness..i cant!! i 2day free de..got alot of time..so i better start doin something..hopefully i dun dose off on my com and drool again..eeyur!!

~*snoozin*~

back in sg!!

2007-11-06T14:57:00.000+08:00

finally back in sg and yea..me already started work in the lab in sch liao..researchin on this TCM called 半枝莲 (ban zhi lian)..seriously i got no idea wad herb this is cuz i hav nv heard of it..so aniwae..i tink i dun tok so much abt my project ba..very the sian de..hahax..juz tt this wk is the "honeymoon" wk cuz its juz preparations nia..den nxt wk CHIONG AH!! also me went to cut my hair over the wkend..so much neater now..plus cut away all the died-ed hair liao (cuz they died when i bleached and coloured, plus they died again when i str8ened..thus..died + died = died-ed)

the labs here..are like freakin cold..can u imagine..if i say its cold..wad would it b to u..as i LOVE the cold..hahax..my fingers are like frozen stiff de lo..right now actually i cant really type properly >.< cold cold cold..

actually ah..im kinda lazy now..bleahx..dun feel like startin my logbk..dun feel like doin the report..i juz wana slack..hahax..tired sia.............(plus this kind of temperature..shiok to sleep..all i need is a bed and blanket..anione wana sponser me put in the lab? XD)

done my preparations and tasks for 2day!! so its slack time!! hahax..crunchyroll.......hehe..D. Grayman!! hahax..must finish watchin those epis..dint finish it while i was in thailand..wanted to..but dint..

wan to post some pix..but oso lazy to upload..(told'ya tt i gettin abit tooooo lazy..) lolx..LAZY LAZY LAZY!! CAN DUN HAV SCH OR NOT?!?!?!!!!?!?!!?! BLEAHX >.<

so well..wana say all the best to all my frenz oso doin SIP/OSIP and do take care of urselves..jiayou! ganbarimashou ne! ja!~

~cold..sleepy..lazy..cold..sleepy..lazy.. = coeepazy (COld, slEEPy, lAZy) XDD~

4more days and 200th post

2007-10-29T12:24:00.000+08:00

200th post! and 4more days to returnin of homesoil!! woot!! hahax..on the 2nd of nov..it will b checkin out, sayin goodbye, gettin on the taxi to the airport and checkin in..around 1130pm of 2nd nov..HOME! LOLX..1st thing i'll do..GET BAK CHOR MEE!! XDDDDD k la..i mean after hugs and kisses with my family at the airport >.<>.<

so aniwae..still cant find my stoopid commerically packed mealworms..bleahx..plan to ask the lady at the nitemarket can keep how long..if can keep long long i buy abit more!! hahax..WATCH OUT PPL..IF I CAN BRING BACK IM SURE TO STUFF ONE INTO UR MOUTH!! MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!

wad else am i gona eat?? *thinks thinks thinks* hahax..die la..i tink i will camp at bedok hawker, all the kopitiams i noe..or rather..eat until i put on the weight i lost (bleahx..choi choi choi..dun wana put back tt weight XD) I WAN ZI CHAR!! (chinese: zhu chao) bloody hell cant type chinese using my office com -_- but anyway..at least i hav something to do here..hahax..

aniwae..20more mins to lunch!! FINALLY!! hahax..hungry hungry >.< k la..i go 1st..get ready to chiong when the clock strikes 12! (singapore 1pm) lolx..ciao!!

~4...3...2...1...hurry go by la time!!~

OMG AN iPHONE!!

2007-10-24T22:42:00.001+08:00

lolx..i really dint expect my godpa to get me something..guess wad it is..AN iPHONE!! LIKE OMG!! when i went only to chat with my mom..my godpa suddenly appears in front of the cam and said he bought the lengendary iphone..den i tot he bought for my godbro nia..den b4 i noe it..he said he bought 2..and the other one is for me!! i almost fell off my chair la..eve was with me at tt time and she was like "omg omg" too..hahax..

kewl man..so happy and surprised!! lolx..now juz need someone out there to hack the latest 1.1.1 version..hahax..den i can update my new iphone without any prob liao..hahax..hopefully eve's bro does it for free or discount for sibling's frenz >_< lolx..

so its my last full wk here now..last wkend to spend tourin and shoppin..and b4 i noe it..its to the airport and HOME!! hahax..family and frenz..here i come and here i return!! hahax..home home home!! YAY!! WHEE!! *rejoices and jumps around like a mad man*

ok la..i go liao gotta go settle my laundry..hahax..cya again soon!~

~*dances around like the actors in apple adverts*~

finally..my last full wk..

2007-10-22T10:29:00.000+08:00

ok..my title sounds like as if im in a torture chamber or something..hahax..well..i juz wana go home..bleahx..stayin here means im prone to spendin more $$..cuz my evil eyes keep openin >.<

left another 11days..JUZ ANOTHER 11DAYS..mm..consider 10.5 days ba..hahax..cuz fri evenin i will at the airport in BKK and waitin for the flight to board and depart..WILL B BACK IN THE NITE!! YAY!!~ lolx..time passes like flashes of light when u're havin fun..but yet when u r feelin down..it passes like a snail crawlin in the garden..(ok..the snail analogy was weird..but wadeva XD)

my shoppin spree here..i tink i can classify it as total madness compared to sg..i tink my mom will kill me..i came here with one pair of slippers..but i'll return with 4pairs and a pair of jap clogs (u noe the kind where the men wear at tofu shops..the block of wood with 2smaller pieces of wood stickin out at the bottom) lolx..and bought like duno how many clothes..all hard to find in sg..well..for wad i tink la..but im told tt my "kind of clothes" can b found in bugis street..unfortunately i RARELY step into bugis street..i go bugis junction..but not bugis street XD

9.36am (singapore 10.36am) here now..at 10am must go change smelly prawn water with floatin suspension of shit again..now relaxin and juz stonin in the aircon lab..thank goodness tml public hol..DEN NO WORK!! MWAHAHA!! ok la..i go do other stuffies liao..bai bee!~

~2nov, 2nov, i love ya, 2nov, u're only 11days away..~

18more days

2007-10-15T15:17:00.000+08:00

i cant believe tt 35days juz flew by lidat..well..not tt i wana drag my time longer here in thailand but..time really flies..i juz hav another 18 more days here and i'll b homeward bound..and soon it'll b home sweet home and...........FOOD GLORIOUS FOOD!! hahax..i reaaaaaallllllyyyyyy miss the food in sg..chicken rice la, char siew rice la, (wadeva) rice, char kway teow, hokkien mee etc etc etc (the list goes on doesnt it?)

i oso miss being able to juz tok and not get looked at..here when u open ur mouth and a word of english comes out..seems as if we are aliens or something..mayb we DO look like thai!! XD but wadeva..i hav learnt the basic stuffs of the language and some of the tourist attractions..can come here shoppin and makan liao!! MWAHAHAHA!! (anyone wana go thailand holidae with me in future?? >_<)

so aniwae..i juz found out tt the startin pay for a fresh bachelor degree grad is like abt S$400 nia..and the masters degree abt S$1000..tok abt the difference in the standard of livin! well..kinda obvious..cuz a meal here i like only a buck..at the most 2bucks plus..less than 3bucks de..like a dish similar to wan tan mee..here only 25baht (abt S$1)..and its not little..its abt the same portion back in sg..i eat tt and im done for lunch!~ jian wei was sayin tt if only we worked in sg and stayed here!~ hahax..we'll b millionaires!!! and can go shoppin spree every now and den XDD

ok den..shall get back to work..break enuf liao..blog again soon..ciao!~

~irony..i dun really like sg but i really wana go back to sg..~

crap..cam screwed up..

2007-10-08T10:47:00.000+08:00

ALL MY PIXES!! ALL THE MEMORABLE PIXES!! stoopid mem card..went all screwy on me..took like duno how many pixes liao lo..den when wana transfer to com.."do u wish to format ur mem card"..BLEAHX..den put back to cam..got error..DOUBLE BLEAHX..bloody hell..den gott reformat the damn card..sigh..tts the downside for a digital cam..got these kind of unexpected probs de..booooooo..tink film cam still the best..hahx..

aniwae..now at work..well..im slackin actually..damn sian la..2day gonna remove some debris or something from the water..duno wad la..but everytime i step into this lab..it has tt sleepy effect..i will suddenly feel sooooooooo bored and juz wana sleep..like now..hahax..

okok..gotta go..go and see wad my colleagues are bz with outside at the tank area..ciao..

4th wkend

2007-10-05T22:15:00.000+08:00

my 4th wkend starts tml..time realli flies..it doesnt feel like its the 4th wk..it a bittersweet feelin tt i wan my attachment here to end faster but yet i LOVE the shoppin here..i miss home, my fren, singapore food, my freedom to use singlish (the only time i get to speak singlish is with singaporeans a.k.a. my frenz who r here with me) and of course ppl whom are close to my heart..

i miss tv.. T.T here no tv u might ask? well..with only 12 chnls and with only 2of them being in eng..u say got things to watch ma?? one is CNN and one is star movies..WHICH usually shows re-runs..BLEAHX..BUTTTTTTTT..on the 14th goin to show POTC2!! yay!! lolx..lookin forward to tt..at least something nice to watch liao!!

aiya..hows life here u might ask..well..all i can say is..ok lo..lidat lo..although i exp something new..its juz not completed to b without the ones close to me..like..the pix is not complete..i wan home..............

ok..shant b emo liao..lets tok abt tml..haha..ken's colleagues goin to bring us to a few place..1stly we will start at the floatin market..heard got lots of mam mam..hopefully doesnt result in diarrhoea..LOLX..den we'll proceed to wat prah giao (i tink its spelt tt way..BUT its pronounced tt way..lolx)..its the temple with the emerald buddha..oso its beside the grand palace..WHICH is beside sanam luang..another market place..YAY MORE SHOPPING!! MWAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAXX!! den at nite goin to khao san road..which ken said tt his colleagues goin to bring us to a nice italian restaurant..

well..seems its gona b a long day tml..better go slp..and oso partially tt i wana stop cuz ken is sittin beside me and being kpo..tryin to put his finger onto the keyboard..makin my life difficult to type finish this stoopid post!! aniwaez..BYE BEE!!

~my loved ones complete my life..~

4th wk

2007-10-03T09:50:00.000+08:00

currently goin thru my 4th wk here in thailand..juz another 4wks more..lolx..well..to b exact..30more days..den it'll b home sweet home..

ARGH..SO BORING!! the past few days at work is super slackified (new word i cre8ed in my dictionary) realli nothin de lo..i gotta feelin 2day oso slack like sai..ARGH!! I NEED SOME ACTION HERE!! *yawnz*

to everyone who noes im here in thailand..I REALLI MISS U GUYS AND GALS!! especially my family, friday dinner and kopi gang, shi min and some other impt ppl in my life..l0lx..cant use the com for too long so must cut short..

aniwae..i better go..lolx..mayb later can blog again or something..ciao!~

~home sweet home..~

I MISS SG!! T.T

2007-09-26T10:15:00.000+08:00

sigh..i startin to miss sg liao..i rather b home now instead of here..although this is a new exp..but i really miss the company of my close ones..my family and frenz..i oso miss the food..where u can juz order in eng or chinese or hokkien..wadeva rojak language oso can order..here leh? in thai..den learn thai until so headache..den only noe how to order some dishes nia..so lunch and dinner everyday is like fried rice, fried noodles, hor fun-like dish, rice with dishes etc.........GODMA I MISS UR COOKIN!! T.T

den the life here ah..other den when goin to central bangkok for sightseeing and shoppin..SUPPPPEEEERRRRRRRRRRRR SSSSIIIIIAAANNNN..at least mon and thurs got night market in the uni campus outside my company..on other days? rottin in the room hopin tt a good movie will appear on star movies..cuz every other chnl is in thai -_-

so now me usin office com again..cuz my room connection is slow although its finally up..and i hav to do some NS thingy shit but the letter is in sg but im here..and i duno wad exactly i hav to do but my mom told me juz to log on and things will be directed to me automatically..HOWEVER..doesnt seem to be happenin..o well..me shall get back to tryin..blog soon!~ ciao~~

WHY NO INTERNET CONNECTION?!?!

2007-09-17T11:36:00.001+08:00

haiz..duno wad happen sia..from the 1st day that i came down to thailand..can connect to the wireless in the room..now..SUDDENLY CANNOT!!! WHY?!?!?! sigh..i tink the administrator must hav cut me and my frenz off or something..we need it for our work de lo..den now we cannot connect den very the ma fan..still tryin to tink of some way tt we can be able to use the wireless or something..juz becuz of this..our webcams and msn and all connection back to home is all cut off..this is damn dumb man..

aiya..now usin office com..nxt thing u noe we hav to use the office com to make our connection back home..BLEAHX..wadeva..aniwae..

2day's the 17th sept..wad a way to spend my bday..so sian sia..away from home..realli miss home..well..not tt i dun hav frenz here to celebrate with me but it realli feels different to celebrate it with family and closer frenz..o well..1st time for everything..this will b the 1st time i spent my bday outside of sg..lolx..aniwae..gotta get back to work..ciaoz!~

~happy bday to moi..~

freaky!!

2007-09-12T21:18:00.000+08:00

lol..update to wad happened at dinner...went outside and tried to order something new..guess wad happened..the shopkeeper wanted us to order but we couldnt speak thai..so i told him we dint understand..den the nxt thing we knew..he asked some other ppl to help but they only smile smile smile den nv help..b4 we can say anything..he picked up his mic and announced to the whole crowd and asked for help..SO MA LU!!!! lolx..well..at least we had some girl to help..lolx..and we ate something new..for a change..hahax..

ok..now must go do logbook liao..ciao~

~simpletons..~

3rd day in thailand

2007-09-12T18:00:00.000+08:00

SAWATDEE KHRAP!! lol..life here is so far so good..only tt i miss home cuz my frenz n family there..but i love it here cuz the stuffs are super cheap and the pace of life is like a snail crawling on the ground XD so aniwae..wads cheap? BEER!! lol..35baht which is less than like 2singapore dollars!! FOR ONE CAN!! lolx..1st thing that went into the fridge was the beer..hahax..sharin room with jian wei..guess its juz more misunderstandin in sch than anything..NEW FREN TO THE LIST!! juz tt he can be like ken sometimes..where the cold wind always blows..lolx..havent say my secret..but duno when can say la..hahax..mayb not now..must wait till get correct opportunity..weird but i wan my frenz to noe more abt me..and not suddenly become good frenz like noe more abt me den disappear..abit sad dun u tink? lolx..wadeva..aniwae..

things are rather fun..made a new fren..more slackin time than stressful time..cheap stuffs..WAD MORE CAN U ASK FOR?!?! lolx..well..only if loved close ones were here to share this exp..

lets see wad else to say..hahax..o ya..when u tink of lu4 bian1 tan1 in thailand..wads the 1st thing u'll tink of? would u tink that the result is a bad stomachache right? hahax..no leh..i ate like duno wad thing liao lo..includes mealworms and pork lard..they not icky lo..they are sinful shit lo!! lolx..aniwae..will be updatin again soon..with pix..will be goin to chatuchak (i tink tts how u spell it..its the famous wkend market place..)

~life's blissful so far~

bittersweet feelin of leavin

2007-09-10T02:33:00.000+08:00

i'll b like leavin the house in 2hr time..such a bitterweet feelin..i wana go and exp leavin alone in some foreign country but yet now i kinda regret choosin OSIP..haiz..realli duno wad to expect when i get there..juz afraid of being homesick..although its juz 2mths compared to my frenz goin there for 5mths..well..new exp juz makes us grow doesnt it? aniwae..juz wana thank my:

parents - for supportin me and allowin me to go thailand for this exp

godparents - oso for supportin me and helpin me in some of the expenses

godbro - for being so comical in sayin goodbye b4 goin to bed

frenz (especially kok and cong for havin tt last min "goodbye kopi") - for havin the kopi sessions, dinner, kboxin etc. b4 i leave for thailand

anyone who had said jiayou or wadsoeva and encouraged me to go on this trip..i thank you too..

sigh..will miss u guys..well..me go get some rest liao..need to leave the house by abt 4.40am to get to the airport at abt 5.10am to check-in and go in by abt 6.10am and fly at 7.10am..will b bloggin abt my life in thailand~ so dun keep ur eyes away for too long!! check every once in a while~ bye bee~~~~

~will miss u all in sg..wish me luck!~

its comin soon..

2007-09-06T01:24:00.000+08:00

sigh..now its wed past midnite (thurs early mornin 1.30am)..another 99hours and 30mins till i hav to get my ass to the airport..yea..although my flight is at like 7.10am..i hav to check-in abt 2hours b4..soooooo 7.10-2hours=5.10am..round it off and u get 5am!! bleahx..so early..sure get there zombified de lo..one thing good is my momma sendin me off..lolx..but its a bittersweet feelin now tt im thinkin of it cuz i dun wana walk away from her AT the airport..i duno..adds tt extra impact tt im leavin singapore..bittersweet cuz i so wana go there and exp life on my own but..I WILL MISS SINGAPORE!! (although i hate the army part abt it..bleahx >.<)

hopin tt the dorms there will b comfortable..not like wad i imagine in my head..wad im imaginin is a room with 2 single beds (yes im sharin with a room-mate), mayb 2desks and a bathroom..bloody hell sounds like a Genting Hotel room la..not tt i hate Genting but..TTS FREAKIN SMALL!! hopin for it a hav abit more space than tt and best will b if tt it had a small kitchen..den can buy grocery and cook meals..save $$$$$$$$$$$$$..lolx..means more SHOPPING!! MWAHAHA!!!!~~~~~

well..wadeva..also wonderin how it would feel like to webcam home..i tink it will feel so weird la..cuz i would see my bedroom in the background..I WILL MISS MY BED!! SOBX..along with my bear, pig and jack skellington head (if u hav a prob with a guy sleepin with soft toys den BUZZ OFF!!) poor things will b sittin on my be for 2mths without me generatin heat for them and givin them music (a.k.a snoring =x) at nite...well..abt my snorin..i've got no idea whether loud or not..i only noe i SNORE!! damnit..i hope my snoring doesnt kill my room-mate XD although i hav received advice like let him sleep 1st or something..i had tt tot in my head of WAD IF he snores too..and..nothin can beat if he snores..LOUDER THAN MOI..HAHAX..

1.42am..took 12mins to type this..lolx..ok la..go slp liao..tml must still report to As4 for the last day of my "refresher course" on using cells as test models for TCM (traditional chinese med if u duno)..ok la..nitez!~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~speed packin event is juz around the corner~

its drawin closer!!

2007-09-03T02:45:00.000+08:00

ok..forget abt the stoopid one line thingy..got a long one to post this time..hahax..

well..one things for sure..EXAMS ARE OVER!! YAY!! MWAHAHA!! but..prayin no supp paper!! THERE BETTER NOT BE!! I WANA FINISH MY POLY IN APRIL!! lolx..in any case..kinda lookin forward to the OSIP in thailand..2mths leh..2 freakin long mths..well..duno whether considered long or short..my frenz are goin there for 5mths!! longer than moi..but to really sit down and tink..2mths aint long..but to miss home and stuffs lidat kinda makes it feel long..bittersweet feelin..aniwae..now most impt thing is..

I MUST START PACKIN MY BAGS!! LUGGAGES!! LOLX..hectic is the word..plus napfa is on wed..bleahx..plannin to do the pull-ups station den can go home liao..FOR GOODNESS SAKE I CANT PULL UP!! unless some miracle happens on tt day tt i wake up with muscles and lose away these fats..*dreams on..* lolx..well..even if fail..me already started exercisin and tryin to lose the kilos and prepare for army so i dun SUFFER in tekong..

bleahx..the tot of army..where boys become men..blah blah blah..more like become men who needs to learn to be gentlemen-ly..(well at least im gentlemen-ly now..*coughs coughs*) hehex..stoopid lo..its like being so hypocritical..me here tinkin tt singapore is such a good place to live..but yet there is too many things being restricted and yea..i hate tt life..well..kinda..duno la..confusin aint it..i like hav a love-hate kinda thing goin on with the country where i am a citizen of =X

havin toked so much..wonderin hows life gona be in thailand..and my room mate is supposedly some coursemate tt duno how come got this i-dun-like-you-and-you-dislike-me between our cliques..painful aint it? lolx..but when we doin all the admin stuffs it dint feel tt way..chance to turn the enemy to fren? hope so..if not it will either i kill him 1st or he kills me 1st in the 2mths in thailand..lolx..cheryl was sayin split the room into 2 and like each of us hav our own "territory"..hahax..well..i dun tink tts my main concern now..wad im concerned abt is tt i tend to SNORE!! DAMNIT!! Y MUST I HAV TT STOOPID THING TO SNORE?!?! damn embarassing la..im gettin paranoid tt my snorin will kill my reputation or something..well..not tt i hav a reputation..or mayb i hav..WADEVA!! lolx..i apologise to jian wei in advance in case he cant sleep! lolx..

well aniwaes..me go sleep liao..tml must go sch for some briefin or something..it better not be a waste of my life and my beauty sleep..lolx..aniwaes..nite nite..

~huggies! ^^~

curses

2007-08-23T00:43:00.000+08:00

~i wan the life i long NOW!!~

interesting..lolx..

2007-08-21T00:56:00.000+08:00

read cheryl's blog and found the one sentence post thing quite cool..hahax..sounds like fun and actually "tests" my english to summarise..hahax..well here goes..

study wk this wk but my stoning mood made a turn for the worse..

~STONE~

nice test..

2007-08-13T01:29:00.000+08:00

kewl man..i juz did this test on meiqi's blog..hahax..like all true lidat..at least tts how i feel..except for the part abt me not believing myself but in my clothes..i LOVE shoppin and i LOVE lookin nice..BUT..i oso LOVE myself..so how can i not believe myself leh?? me typical virgo so i sometimes get into deep shit cuz i dun listen to advice..but..WADEVA..lolx..im juz happy with the way i am..juz constantly improvin myself wheneva i can lo..hahax..aniwae..this is wad i got......

Your view on yourself: You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love: You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education: You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you: You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success: You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of: You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

~only me..wad u see is wad u get..hard to make a leopard change its spots..if u wan..CONVINCE ME OF WAD IM DOIN WRONG!! MWAHAAAAAA!!~

something abt me..

2007-07-28T02:00:00.000+08:00

well not related to the title but i've finally changed blogskin..lolx..i tink if ur eyes go kuku like mine when readin the post..i suggest highlightin it 1st b4 readin..i chose this blogskin cuz the previous one had the pix perform a disappearin act and this seems to b the nicest one i can find for now..aniwae..

went for pok pok teh cum lunch with han yin after sendin poor-under-the-weather ken home after sch..apparently eve,cheryl and liu jia zoomed off for their shoppin session..well..aniwae me n han yin toked abt some stuffs..and he said something abt in future askin me for advice related to relationships..from wad i noe..Virgo-folks (im one of them) are "specialised" on givin advice..true? i duno..its juz tt when frenz come to me when there is a prob..i will put myself in both parties' shoes..and try to giv wad i would do if i was the "fren-in-distress"..well..i'll take the advice part as a compliment ba..as i always tell my frenz tt i'll do all i can to b there if they need me..juz dun cross the line or u'll get it from me..

well..im not all tt good and talented and wadsoeva u call me ba..we all hav our good pts and bad pts..so i'll say some of my bad pts which my frenz usually see..

well..i've got a loud voice since young (literally..my voice can reach from the back of the kitchen downstairs to a room upstairs with the doors closed in my godma's hse..) and yea..i always get mistaken tt often raise my voice..but..well..i seem to tok louder when i get excited or "sucked into" fun and juicy conversation..so juz to put it..i rarely get angry..at the most i juz get bitchy with u and juz walk away (cant b bothered to waste my energy for the likes of u)..well..i do get tt monthly male PMS thing where i get irritable..i told han yin..dun scared me la..again..i dun get angry easily..juz tt my tolerance lvl juz drops..so..juz dun cross the line..dun worry..for any situation (whether got PMS or not) i will warn the person tt i reachin my limit liao..lolx..

wad else..o ya..i tend to tink too much oso..like wad i read i analyse things unconciously..so eve..u r not the only one..cuz after readin this..i realise tt i tink alot too..mayb tts y we same fequency of brain wavelength..at least..tts wad i feel la..hahax..well..guess tt "easier said than done" of not tinkin so much isnt tt easy after all..cuz i know tt when i tink too much..it affects my decision to do something and i get very indecisive of wad action to take..i ALWAYS love to weigh the pros and cons of the different choices..irritatin aint it? well..too bad..im wad u get..so when i do make a choice..DUN TRY TO MAKE ME CHANGE MY MIND LIAO..WASTE MY BRAIN CELLS NIA..

lolx..well..i tink tts all i can say abt myself..later chase away all my frenz n buddies..k la..go sleep liao..juz suddenly felt like bloggin abt 2day so sat down in front of my com b4 i put it to standby mode..nite nitez!~

~HARDER, BETTER, FASTER, STRONGER..eagerly waitin..~

rants and reflections..

2007-07-17T00:26:00.000+08:00

me still havin my pms mood..duno y..either tt or i juz anti-someone already..really pissed the shit outta me 2day when he/she stepped my tail..but i early early anti-him/her liao..

duno la..wadeva..either tt or i juz realli hav alot of things on my mind now tt i juz take my stress out on him/her..

my mind is like filled with worries abt sch work n exams, NAPFA, my upcomin OSIP to thailand for 2mths (and all the itty-gritty stuffs related to it), my personal life..so many things la..

apart from tt..most of my mind is like occupied with the fact tt my personal life is affecting everything la..(i tink.....) i shall spare the details but i duno..wad i realli wan now is within my reach..but i juz duno how to get it now..plus im scared tt my OSIP away from singapore will make it more difficult to get it..for 2mths..for 2mths my only possible connection home is like webcam (if got internet which most probably hav..) and phone (must go activate roamin liao..)

too many things to settle..too many things to achieve..too little time to do so..hopefully im able to overcome this obstacle and get to my goals and emerge victorious in them..

o well..juz rantin n another note-to-self-cum-reflection post..shall go retire to bed and worry abt tutorial quiz tml..nite nite..

~2things on my mind now..time will only tell..and..the lyrics in the songs of Something abt us and Insatiable~

OSIP in thailand...

2007-07-07T00:14:00.000+08:00

2day was like the longest day eva..was in sch at like 10..wasted my life in tt one hour..den got RTecB lab..wasted MOST of my life there where i can b havin my nice lunch..in the end sat there like an idiot waitin for nothin..everyone was like juz starin at each other,tokin cock,sleepin etc...den got this stoopid complusory lec from 4-6 WHERE I CAN GO HOME AT 3!! bloody shit..wasted my life..seriously..den oso found out tt got trainin for NAPFA every tues and thurs..BLEAHX..oooo its to train u for the big day(sep 5 is NAPFA day)..u noe these day got young ppl juz hav sudden death and blah blah blah..WADEVA..all the more u shouldnt make this trainin complusory..WE ARE STRESS ENUF WITH SCH WORK DAMMIT!!!

aniwaes..after tt went for rehearsal for tml's performance at the singapore indoor stadium..again..sat there waitin for our shit to boil (hokkien: dan sai gun)..wasnt tt productive afterall..BUTTTTTTT..we found out tt the little transmitter thingies DOESNT WORK AS WELL WE TOT IT WOULD..our ears work better listenin to the ACTUAL music and singing to it..

in such a bitchy mood these days..criticise and complain over every single thing tt irritates me..got no idea y..must b tt guy's version of PMS..girls..if u tink guys dun PMS..U R WRONG..we hav tt irritable time of the mth too..soooooo..DUN CROSS THE LINE!! IF U DO..U WILL GET THE THRASHIN OF UR LIFE!~ >_<

duno la..juz hav alot of things in mind..OSIP..my grades..projects..my family life..my social life..my personal life..choir..chinese orchestra..tinkin of ways to get back wad i borrowed to other ppl (which is so hard to contact for wadeva reasons) cuz i need it for the OSIP trip..*faints*

rant rant rant..and the rantin goes on..i tink its realli my time of the mth..bleahx..aiya..better juz go sleep and dun tink abt it liao..ciao!~

~i miss tt feelin where i feel warmth n comfort..~

torn...

2007-07-05T00:42:00.000+08:00

being emo again..kinda hate this period of time..i feel so happy with im with others but when im alone..got things juz keeps hauntin my mind..liu jia..i noe u noticed i kinda spaced out 2day..den like angry angry serious serious look..juz tt my mind got things ya..

im juz..lost..duno wad to do now..in a way..torn apart..

one word..torn..

ya..juz torn..

~FAN SI REN LE!!! Y LIFE CANT B TT SIMPLE & FARKIN HAPPY-GO-LUCKY?!?!~

its no longer the same..

2007-07-03T00:08:00.000+08:00

something's change...
n its not me...
i do not noe wad happened..
but its no longer the same..

~nothin to say..~

left a few more days....

2007-06-20T00:38:00.000+08:00

duno y my blog skin went like wierd..THE AYU PIX DISAPPEARED..*SOBZ*..will change soon le..when i find a nice one tt is..lolx..

so aniwae..hols comin to an end soon..*bleahx*..still need to rush the stoopid BPT project which i dint had much time to start cuz of my commitments..and like right after my commitment when there is still time to squeeze in work..i went out like a candle in the wind (woah..like when did i become so "literature-like-thingy-person" =x) SORRY KEN AND HY IF MY WORK CAME IN TOO SLOW..AND SORRY CHERYL CUZ MY PART IS LIKE THE SAME AS URS.........HONTONI GOMENASAI!!!) really hectic wk comin..plus sch restartin..quick summary..thurs co prac in the mornin n do project..fri try to finish up work n day to recharge n prepare for "uber hectic-ness"..sat whole day havin co prac..sun mornin hav choir concert rehersal n hav to rush down to conference hall for co concert..mon sch reopens n hav choir rehersal at 7pm..tues oso hav sch n hav choir performance for mr. president at nite (president as in Mr. S.R. Nathan) N I HAV TO DO A RECITATION DURIN THE SONG..*stresses out*..lol..i know im a busy person..but..i tink this time abit too busy liao..i predict total exhaustion after this episode..*faints*..

well..put tt aside..back to the present..had TPCO camp ystd n broke camp this afternoon...tiiiiiiiiiiirrrrreeeeddddddd......lol..well..had my power nap once i got home..went upstairs..cleared my bag..and went on the daybed outside my room and took a trip to lala-land once i head touched the pillow..tt was how exhausted i was even though i took forty-winks like from 5am-8am during the camp..hats off to the main comm for organising the camp..wasnt tt fun..but..really appreciated tt they put in their best tryin to make the camp fun..not easy tryin to organise a 2D1N camp where there is like only 4ppl..arigatoo gozaimasu!~

yupz..so after i awake from my slumber..went down for dinner n met up with tim cuz i needed to buy flour cuz me goin to bake brownies for my cuzzie n nephew from vancouver..but..i had another "motive" for goin to parkway parade..hhahaahax...behold....

I GOT ANOTHER PIERCING..lolx..got nagged by my mom again..and soon my dad will play the music too..she claims i do things without tinking..but on the contrary..i do..i noe there is such things as consequences n i weigh it out properly b4 makin a move..these 2yrs of my life taught me quite a number of things n yes..i learnt my lesson to tink b4 talkin, making actions n well..once bitten twice shy..so i make rational decisions thank you very much..now the consequence im facin is the harsh painful process of healin..tt part of my ear hurts everytime i touch it..so..can u imagine how i took my bath juz now..took longer than usual to wash my hair..it was like..*wash wash wash* *OUCH* *wash wash wash* *ARGH* *wash wash wash* *CRAP* (and it went on for like the 20mins to wash my hair compared to the norm of 10mins..) well..cant sleep on this ear for like the next few days..i doubt i can bring myself to lie on my right anyway..i pierced right cuz i usually slp on my left..

aniwae..hair dryin soon..den i can take my trip to lala-land again..need my beauty sleep..I DUN WAN PIMPLES..lol..need to look good..HAHAX..*strikes a pose* XDDD...o well..until den..ki o tsukete!~

~i need more time..too many things..too little time..~

weird feelin 2day...

2007-06-13T01:31:00.001+08:00

duno y..but hav been feelin so emo 2day..supposed to go sentosa 2day but ended up stayin home cuz i needed to help out around the house..

my mind has been "emo-fied" lately..duno y..kinda refreshin feelin though..weird right..but something different..been tinkin abt things goin on around me..kinda sickenin feelin sometimes when i tink too much..

things doesnt usually go the way u planned..i hate tt feelin..

sometimes all i juz wan is loneliness..juz leavin me alone..

i juz wana live life the way i wan..but i cant..well..not yet mayb..

love? an addiction?

frenship? real or takin advantage?

family? if i am part of it..den y so hard to accept and scared to lose face or wateva nonsense?!

i realli wan some "universal language" right now..makes the world go round right? we love money right? den y is everyone in singapore so square?! OPEN UR FREAKIN MINDS U SICKENIN IDIOTS!! DOES IT HURT TO B MORE OPEN-MINDED?!?!

im so sick of this..someone juz stab me already..........................

~i need my liberation..my freedom..my life........~

is it that difficult?

2007-05-27T14:37:00.000+08:00

isit tt difficult to emphathise?
isit tt difficult to express thanks?
isit tt difficult to try to help?

tink abt it.......................................

~we hav our limits..so watch wad u do to others..~

YO HO! YO HO! A PIRATE'S LIFE FOR ME!

2007-05-26T01:48:00.000+08:00

hehe..i tink u can guess from my title le..I WENT TO WATCH PIRATES 3 JUZ NOW!! MWAHAHAHAHA!! SO NICE SO NICE!! ..well..a nice endin to my 5day wk at sch..

aniwae..hav some things to say..not realli related to the title..lolx..kinda serious post ba..

guess my wake up call did not realli wake things up totally..this is targeted to a group of ppl and not only 1 person ok..i hav no ida whether the month of may of 2007 is like the "roller coaster of emotions" month or something..y cant we look on the bright sides of life? there are 2sides of the coin..u wan things to change, den open ur mouth..we hav ears..we can listen..we hav hearts..we can feel..we hav brains..we can tink to solve the prob..to every prob there is a solution..mayb we did go overboard sometimes..its up to u how u take it..we meant it as a joke..i duno sometimes..wadeva..been sayin so many times..even the tarot predictions..guess everyone is juz playin for the fun of it..*bleahx*..if every prob starts with one person..den i guess tt person will not be very nice to b with right? but there is still us..tink abt it...........................im tt kind of person who dun like to apologise when im not TOTALLY in the wrong..aniwae..other things like utter sarcasm..i duno..can b a joke..can b hurtful..but sometimes i see it too painful..giv signal..but got stop? NOOOOO...den sparks fly.. and o ya..if u hav faith..things will last..tts wad i believe..if u lose tt faith..hope will nv return unless tt faith reignites..is life tt difficult? sometimes i find it so..but there is something known as H.E.L.P. and P.O.S.I.T.I.V.E. C.H.A.N.G.E.S....

i duno la..i myself is caught within this roller coaster month..mayb i did become emotional i oso duno..all i know is tt im busy like shit..busier than any other month tt went by b4..i juz wan to b with my frenz to relieve this stress..with my frenz..my JOYFUL frenz without the negative parts..call me kaypo but if u guys got a prob..my ears and heart are open for u to pour ur sorrows and ur pain into..i juz wan everyone to be happy..familiar? guess we all hav our ways to do so..and we always unknowningly excute tt move which we tink will make everyone happy..tts y im always tellin my frenz tt "im a phone-call away"..juz to remind u..im always here for my FRENZ (i put caps cuz some ppl in my life[which is not in the group of ppl im tokin to in this post] take FRENZ forgranted)..i will always do my best to help..till the point tt my mom actually scolds me say tt i care abt my frenz more than my family..

other than busy..i oso must study study study..i study but it feels like nothin went in..i take my hats of to u tt ur studies are superb..but i feel tt there is more to life..tink positive! y apologise when its not even ur fault? reflection? good..but dun overcriticise urself..we all can make tt human revolution in us..the 1st step is the most difficult..and my advice now..take tt most difficult step to start tinkin positive, look on the bright side of life..if got probs,there r always listening earS to listen n lighten ur load..dun try..if u say u try u wun do it with a 100%..cuz u r tryin..u MUST do it..its nothin to do with being urself or not now..in this already stressful life of being a student..we must hav a happy "incomin channel" and a disgusting "output"..and tinkin positive does go a long way..

speakin of being stress-free and happy..i juz love the adverts on the "Anything" and "Whatever" drinks..lolx..laughed my head off..we all need joke sometimes right..laughter is the best medicine afterall..but i tink we should control ourselves sometimes..hold back on the sarcasms..we should noe the person b4 shootin the words..different ppl hav different tolerance lvl..some keeps it in..some laughs it off..i personally ALWAYS laugh it off unless u really stepped on my feet..den i will forgiv..but i will nv forget..so u watch out if u do..aniwae..i guess its time tt we become who u say u r..i cant say im a man..cuz they say men can be boys..which i feel its true..so im juz a more matured boy compared to others..knowin when to stop when it hurts thank you very much..

i duno la..guess im so carefree tt i always say i duno..mayb i say i duno cuz mayb i juz ranted nonsense..cuz i duno the full story afterall..but all these is from my heart..wat i feel now..and i know things will change..i know..but..wad i duno is tt whether it will be a good or bad change..wadeva..i will let things go on its own..i juz ranted here cuz im too tired to say in person..im tired as in physically..busy like shit these few days..and i cant find the right opportunity to say oso..hopefully..things will change now..

~one life is all we live..so live it happily..dun like something? change it..it your story..we EACH hav our own story to write so u and only u can edit ur story..~

headache headache headache.......

2007-05-21T10:02:00.000+08:00

well..at least my last rantin is like over..lolx..tt was rather a dramatic episode actually..and the endin abit the heart wrenchin..hahax..well..shall not say too much again b4 tears start wellin in me eyes again T.T

well..so updates abt moi..hehex..me am officially in SSAC (Singapore Soka Association Chorus) LALALALALALALALALALALA.... XDDDD cant believe me in choir? well..believe it!!! >_< another thing is...IM GOIN TO WATCH PIRATES ON FRIDAY!! YAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *hums out the pirates of the caribbean theme song* (*ponders: did i even spell the title correctly? XD..WADEVA..i tink everyone should noe the title ba..hehex..)

this is goin to be another long wk..headache headache headache..suppose to plan the "timetable" to bake the cookies for nxt wk's TPCO's fund raising..den got the usual TPCO practices..den got assignments to be done..den got jap class..den got choir practice etc. etc. etc.....lolx..

now in sch..waitin for the rest of the group members to arrive..actually i dint do my part..im SOOOOO GUILTY.......die la T.T i had like practically no time to squeeze in this stoopid BPT SHYT..*bleahx*.. well..now left like eve and ken to arrive..nv heard of ken being late..eve..still home..BUT SHE BUYIN BEE HOON LATER!! XDDD i juz need sleep..my beauty sleep..my face is like dying la..*sobx*..

o well..LETS GET THIS OVER AND DONE WITH..I WAN MY HOLIDAY!! lolx..and JIE JIE ELAINE IS COMIN FROM VANCOUVER NXT WK!! WHEEEEE!!!!!!! so excited..more bitchin abt relatives times, more laughin like mad times,more makanin!! YEA!!!!!!!!!! and small nick is comin!! lolx..little rascal..wonder how is he now..lolx..mayb grown up and less "rascal-like" XDDD haiz..duno whether olivia comin or not..I WAITIN FOR U TO COME TO PIERCE EAR AGAIN!! FASTER LEHX..............hehex..

oki..im like super bored la..well..better go get bz with the stoopid conclusion..HUNGRY!!!!!!

~well..randomness has taken me over..hahax..MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!~

wad the hell is goin on around here?!!

2007-05-15T23:42:00.000+08:00

as my title says it..WTF IS GOIN ON AROUND HERE??!?!

seriously..im like sittin in the middle and like try in to mediate this (call me kpo or wadeva) but im tryin to do this cuz its my frenz..juz over a small thingy? blow up? i seriously dun understand..y cant this world b more peaceful? settle differences by tokin? lies? i duno..i gotta feelin by postin tis may hurt my r/s with some of my frenz but heck..im tired of this...WAKE UP!! WE ARE 18/19..GOIN TO B 20 LIAO!! dun like something abt ur fren? say it! ITS UR FREN..WE ARE TELLIN U UR BAD PTS! if u noe he/she is goin to blow up if u said something lidat..den so b it..u noe its him/her! u will noe if he/she will blow up cuz he/she is ur fren damnit! let tt person blow up den try to get ur pt across! TOK! OUR CREATOR GAV US MOUTHS DINT HE? (im a buddhist and its juz a figure of speech..no offence to other religions..) will u go up to a stranger and start an arguement with him/her? (other than if tt person pisses me of like some freakin irritatin drivers on the road..blasted my horn at him juz now..a long persistently fucking nice horn..ok back to my story..) y the hell waste ATP by blowin up on something u dun even noe abt?! side A says tt he/she kena ignored..side B says he/she bz tryin to finish off den can pass the final ans without the need to tell A to keep editing..therefore side A duno y keep kena-in ignored so toked slightly louder than usual..den side B tok slightly louder too cuz A toked louder..soooooo....*BOOM*....there it happened leaving me and a fren of mine trapped in the explosion..

to round it up..both hav faults..A should hav asked properly and waited..B should hav said wait nicely and not blow up..

o ya..one more thing..does takin sides mean to stay with the person after the arguement has happened? NO RIGHT! i was cleanin up la! and tryin to piece together the whole puzzle with my other victim fren..and i said i was sittin in the middle so i realli duno wad both sides think..WADEVA! I JUZ HOPE TT THIS POST GETS SOMETHING ACROSS!!

den suddenly..everyone splits..tried to round up and tok properly like peacefully to iron out something this small..fine lo..everyone sian..all zhao..left me and my fren to persuade B to go for lunch..i duno la..either tt im buttin my nose in too much or everyone is puttin on the mask and say tt things should b settled another day..sorry but im gonna copy my fren here..if this everything around us is a lie wouldnt tt be world = lies? den y are we in it? who say tt they dun lie? the BIGGEST liar in the world are OURSELVES..*rolls eyes*..sometimes i realli wonder if we even exist..mayb this is all a dream..A BIG FAT SILLY LITTLE DREAM WHERE WE ALL HAV OBSTACLES TO OVERCOME!!

apart from tt part of my ranting..change topic now..me..virgo? good listener? good adviser? good mediator? guess tt juz a good way of puttin kaypo-ing into english..freakin shit..this person keeps puttin airplane on my group of frenz..lets call him/her person Z..den when needs us suddenly call and blah blah blah..den i will always b the last option when no one can ans the questions and calm person Z down..now this person Z's significant other is super bz with his/her obligations..so guess wad..PERSON Z IS BACK!! keeps apologising..keeps wantin back in the group cuz dun wana tink of the significant other while the significant other is bz..WAD ARE WE??? SUBSTITUTES??? dint u get the hint tt we stopped askin u out cuz we gav up tryin? said u'd change but tts bull! we hav given u chances but this will be the last straw..u better watch out..we are freakin tired of this..

ARGH!! WADS WITH THE WORLD THESE DAYS?!?! civil war here civil war there..bomb here bomb there..discrimination here discrimination there..bloody hell..WE ARE ALL HUMANS..HOMO SAPIENS!! WE PROCLAIM OF TT HIGHER INT OVER ANIMALS BUT Y ARENT WE USIN IT?! only noe how to succumb to prejudice, hate and violence..im tired of this..we get tired dun we? now its my turn here..gimme a break..

WAKE UP PEOPLE!! WAKE UP!! WAKE UPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~wish i can giv the world a big-tight-wake-up-slap~

new skin.....

2007-05-08T01:02:00.000+08:00

decided to change my blogskin..realised tt the old one was wayyyyyy to boring...hahax...until i learn how to photoshop and make my own blogskin...i tink me will try to juz find online..lolx..(more or less..im lazy to learn UNLESS..anyone wana teach me??? lolx...) well..heard tt meiqi know how to make..tink must ask her XDDDD

aniwae..chose this blogskin..AYU!! I LOVE YOU!! AYU!! *clap clap clap* AYU!! *clap clap clap*..AYU-CHAN DAISUKI!! lolx..ok..hav gone officially crazy due to sch..hahax..will be laminating my ayu posters..immortalize them!! >.<>

part of Me..i love this song la..cut the last bit and made it my ringtone..MUST LISTEN!! if wan can juz ask me..i send u..hahax..aniwae..better go slp le..HONTONI nemui desu..*yawnz*..hai! oyasumi!~ mata ne!~

~if only everyday can be sunday..hahax..(tink too much liao XD)~

oooooo drama mama...

2007-05-03T00:48:00.000+08:00

life....full of drama aint it?

well..tts wad spices it up right? giv and take la...no one like dramas but....yea...wad doesnt kill u will make u stronger...

eva since i went thru a drama myself..i find i became more bitchy...hahax..more tricks up my sleeves..more..er...EVIL!! MWAHAHAHAHA!! i always find myself with evil thoughts when someone realli offend me..eg. slappin them so hard tt it ended up quarrellin and i threw tt person off the building (evil right?)..well..best part is..i rarely get angry and if i do..i will juz bitch the hell outta u or juz walk away and watch u FUCK OFF!! MWAHAHA!! oops..stray too far from wad i wanted to type..

i guess we hav to assess the situation and see wads the best solution ba..to every prob is a solution!! >_< well..to my drama...it ended with a "BANG" tt i become a backstabber and i ruin someone's name...WHICH...i had no idea wad happened...wadeva...its over liao..past...if it comes back to haunt...den i nothin to say..

so...now the situation will be solved with a solution when the situation allows the time for the solution to appear..(damnit i feel like im my sec sch teacher..XD shane i tink u would noe wad i mean)..

drama actors..ganbatte ne..moi am ze director! (well..i mean tt i will make ze 1st move..) MWAHAHA! ze magic will comez fromz moi sleeves! audiences..sit back and relax as we wont noe the endin of the show till the magic appears..actors..hav an open mind and dun let things get to u..paiseh if i sound thick-skinned but i tink the drama i've been thru cannot b compared with tis..cuz tis has many more solutions and how old are we? 19...so? a big shell can hav a small nut and KARMA IS A WONDERFUL THING..MWAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!!

~wad goes around comes around wad goes up must come down..~

rants....

2007-04-30T01:15:00.000+08:00

hav been tinkin these few days..duno y..lolx..but like..i feel my dreams and ambitions are like achievable when im like older..so irritatin la..although the adults say "wa..i wish i was studyin.." or like "enjoy ur student life..when u older u will wish u we studyin instead of workin"..irony is..i wana be older..now this pt of my life is like preparation to move to my hopes and dreams..which stoopid NS hav to interrupt!! >.< i wan tt freedom..i wan tt independant life i always dream of..havin tt living space i can call my own be it at the most a 3room flat (call me a loner but wateva)..without being supported by my parents but supportin them..being accepted for who im..argh!! the grass is always greener on the other side..guess tt is so true..we always long for something others hav but we dun..

when i told my mom tt i wana apply for OSIP..and at the max i will be away is like 5mths..she was like stunned..and somehow..it seems tt she juz cant let me go..i did put myself in my mom's shoes tt she is kinda of a lonely person..but..its so difficult for me to balance between wad i wan and makin her happy..i cant imagine wad will happen to her if i am moving out and living on my own..but tts wad i wan..

i hav always read horoscope stuffs and wadsoeva personality stuffs and its so true tt im tt kind who juz cant stay at home..unless i hav reason to stay home tt is (eg. be home with other half, birthday, gathering etc.)..i juz find being home juz to be with FAMILY is so..boring..my mom's idea of me bring home is..to be present in the living space -____- to me being home is when i do something with my family like watchin movie together, chit chat blah blah..the idea of stayin home rottin in front of the com or tv alone while everyone else is doin something else is torturing..tts y i always go out to meet frenz..until the pt tt im told i treat my frenz more impt than family..

im juz typing wads appearin in my mind so i dun even noe whether anything sounds like rational..well..duno la..im juz so irritated with everything right now..parents nag = good for u..fine i take tt..but things tt hav been said recently sounded contradictin to me..one min words of praise..another min words doubting ability..i so hate ppl doubtin my ability (sounds proud right..mayb..) but when im confident of doin something..at least lemme try..fail..so be it..at least i noe i tried..if i wasted ur time..den i apologise..simple right? i only realise this stoopid shit after i got my drivin license..im so tired and hurt..

sometimes i realli feel happier with my frenz than with family..
sometimes i realli feel tt my frenz noe be better than my family..
frank, saddening but so true..

i did thought of it..if i did pursue my hope and dreams..i will be happy..but it MAY be at the expense of my mom's emotions..if i did not..my mom will not be hurt..but its so unfair for me cuz i dun get to pursue wat i always wanted..i feel like a fake sometimes..im happy and carefree whereeva i go but to tink of it..deep inside i realli wan so much..

mayb i hav always and seems to be will always tink too much, although i always try to tink on the bright side of life..mayb i juz hav a very childish thinkin at this present period, tt i nv even matured from the beginnin..mayb i had nv empathized in the 1st place, lying to myself tt i did put myself into other ppl's shoes..mayb this is all a dream, nv to b true and fulfilled..mayb..juz mayb...........

~torn between self and home..~

post b4 sch starts..EEKS!! SCHOOL!! >_<

2007-04-20T23:50:00.000+08:00

lol..actually wanted to post this with some pix but haiz..cant get the pixes from amanda..pixes of me, ian and amanda in HK!!! lolx..went there on apr 6th to catch AYU'S CONCERT on the 7th!! managed to get some shoppin time..but..I WAN MORE TIME!! SO MUCH TO SHOP AND SO LITTLE TIME..I HATE TT FEELIN LA..in singapore..is walk walk walk..tryin to find something tt really catches ur eye..den when something does..u dun hav $$ in ur pocket..den in HK..i got the $$ BUT..not enuf time -_____- IRRITATING LA..nxt time when i work..or when get more $$..must go back HK and SHOP SHOP SHOP!! the fashion there beats singapore's HANDS DOWN!! 100%!!! well..but consolation is..i managed to get some lovely tops!! WHEE!! XDDD

den also..another happy thing tt happened is..ITS LEGAL FOR ME TO DRIVE LE!! MWAHAHHAHA!! VROOM-VROOM..i wana drive to sch..lol..managed to drive abit..drive my mom get dinner..pick ian up from sch..den the feelin sets in..i prefer driving to bus! kinda bad..lolx..so yea..VROOM-VROOM!! LOLX..

sch startin soon though..yr 3 le..must start gear le..cannot flop my last yr..i wan go uni!! but 1st..ITS ARMY...my gawd la..hope my arachnophobia can get something..i damn scared of spiders la..freak out if i see one..aniwae..must lose abit of weight..or at least get my fitness lvl up..if not i will die in army X.x

o well..tired tired..tml got jap class..better go slp le..nitez!~ juz hope i can slowly get use to the sucky timetable which i will be experiencing soon..BLEHX!! >.<

~i miss tt feelin................~

juz another day more!~

2007-04-05T04:53:00.000+08:00

fri..6th apr..leavin singapore for HK in the morning..so tt..i can catch..AYU LIVE!!!~ MWAHAHAHA!!! so happy..finally can be at a live concert..well..i hope tt in future when i workin den earn $$ den can go japan!!~

AYU I LOVE U!!!~~~

lol..well..happy memories for this wk too..mon went to sentosa with eve,han yin, ken,mei qi,kai yan n jon..damn fun la..but now is like i damn burnt..hahax..juz went tou with kok n cong den they so shock with the fact im so red..den kok say i tan tan den look good..MWAHAHAH!!~ BUT ACTUALLY..i look good all the time..(hehex..thick-skinned XDDD)

actually wanted to blog this last wk..the previous sunday i went to watch the phantom of the opera..woot! super nice..if i had the cash and if there were tix left..i would get myself another tix to go la..me and amanda went..den right after the show on the way to our neighbour's grandchild's 1st month birthday dinner and all the way we were like hummin the songs la..the tunes got STUCK in our head..i personally liked Think Of Me, Masquerae and All I Ask of You..so nice so nice so nice..MWAHAHA!!

im filled with happy events this few wks..but this happiness is not complete..well..there is still time..hahax..hols goin to end soon though..den sch starts! >.<

the foloin wk i'll be takin my driving test..must pass..cuz..I WANA DRIVE TO SCH!! 16th apr..i must pass!! and now CO practices are like goin berserk..they plannin to go overseas this sept..its like my attachment period la..duno la..as part of TPCO..must still support..aniwaes..i'll take things as they come now..juz some short term goals to reach..

o well..seems im rather fortunate la..hav my godparents..den can go overseas lidat..watch ayu..juz read my fren's blog..i tink u would noe if this is directed to u or not la if u readin this..dun stress over life k..although i rant abt it sometimes la..hahax..life may be unfair at times but hey..who eva said tt life was fair..well..must see from different pts ba..my good side..i hav a lovin family and a whole good bunch of frenz..but the thing i want the most now is my whole freedom..i wan to juz b able to go out without the fact tt my mom will call and nag nag nag to come home early..i wan tt freedom like i say den i can..example like if i say i go out for supper is tt im tellin u where i goin..not askin for permission..tt kind of thing..i still dun get tt..so i feel tt life is unfair to me at tt part cuz i see my frenz can do tt so easily..i guess tt EVERYONE will feel in some way or another tt there is an unfair part in THEIR life..now is tt i rather dun stress tt part..i juz treasure wad i hav..life is simple if u wan it to b..tinkin too much = stress = unhappiness..so simple = no stress = happy! hahax..well..easier said than done la..(i tink i keep contradictin myself in this paragraph..hope im not though)..hahax..main thing conclusion lolx..dun stress..life is tt simple..treasure wad u hav..live life the way u like it (but yea..parents still impt hahax..so cannot of lifestyle tt "abandon" them..) aiyo..i tink i dun say liao..i feel like isay more become more chim tt i dun even understand wad i typin..i tink..hahax..blur liao la..ok la..

i go koon liao..nite nite..and yea..i will return sun nite..so hp will be off till then..impt frens will receive smses tt i come home le..hahax..shi min u r one of them..lolx..

~...................jiayou......................~

wad a wk...

2007-03-19T01:39:00.000+08:00

like lolx..havent blogged for awhile >.<

well..last wk was like keep goin out with timo and the gang (includes sj,jo and jeff) cuz tim went in like last fri..so it was like dinner coffee dinner coffee and etc..lol..main stuffs were like goin sentosa and folo-in tim to tekong!! lolx..

last mon was like went to town in the afternoon cuz sj wanted to go to wisma to do some shoppin den the idea of "HEY LETS GO SENTOSA!" popped into our heads..lolx..so planned to meet on tues to prepare the food for the picnic and weds will be the day to sentosa..so mon ended like we splittin up with sj at orchard cuz she went to meet kelwin for dinner..so me, tim and jo went back to siglap..we dinnered and it was homeward bound..hahax..

tues..met with jo to buy the food (obviously tim and sj slept like pigs again and was like LATE!)..went over to eastwood (i tink tts the name of the place..its juz the cold storage near bedok camp there)..bought chips, cocktail sausages, 3loaves of bread, chic breast, cheese, ham and mayo..so went back to jo's place and rotted for awhile b4 workin in the kitchen..well..it seems tt the only place tt i will eva cook again will be the kitchen at home..jo's kitchen was like an outdoor place thingy and there was oso the place where the laundry was done..so u can like imagine the side of the sink placed with laundry detergents and yea..i was so afraid tt the food would get contaminated..thank goodness all tt was needed of tt place was juz to boil and chic breast and eggs..after which we proceeded to make the chic mayo, egg mayo and ham & cheese sandwiches..tt was like a WHOLE LOTTA BREAD MAN!! lolx..3LOAVES FOR GOODNESS SAKE!! so the time flew by and we went for dinner at 85..jeff lives near there so we passed some stuffs to be put into the fridge 1st den we would collect it after out dinner..wat went there were the sausages and the sandwiches tt sj was suppose to bring home..went for dinner den we slacked at a playground near jeff's block..there was like this obstacle course thingy which we like small kids jumped and play..den got this spinnin wheel thingy where we spun and spun and spun and...........yea..u can imagine the number of dizzy ppl..lol..except sj cuz she isnt human..spin spin spin can still laugh like a sadist and can still walk str8..so had fun and we got all sweaty after tt..thank goodness my mom hadnt slept yet so i asked her to pick me up and drop my frenz off..me bought home the sausages cuz i was in charged to bringin them the folo-in day..

wed..woke up like early to cook the sausages..well..the frozen packagin was so deceiving..we bought 2 which totals up to 1kg of cocktail sausages..but it still look so small..until i pour the whole 1kg of them into the pot of boilin water..IT WAS LIKE A WHOLE DAMN LOTTA SAUSAGES LA!! met them on the train and yea..there were ppl late again..lolx..got to sunny sentosa and decided to head to palawan beach..got a spot on the island after crossin the suspension bridge and tadah! picnic starts! well..started by eatin..we were famished! opened all the stuffs we made and attacked them like hungry dogs XDDD like i said..a whole lotta bread and sausages..eat eat eat..eat till full and we still hadnt finished la..so carried on to playin in the water..haha..i had to start the ball rollin by removin my clothes la..the two girls dun dare cuz one dun wana show her fats and one dint wana show her chest (-.- like its the beach man..den come out with excuses like tim wasnt strippin..for goodness sake tt boy is scared of bodies of water! so he aint goin! >.<) so after MUCH persuasion..they got outta their clothes and SPLASH! stayed in the water and yea..actually wanted to tan but like tim used the mats to sleep..not tt he dint offered it to me and jo but like yea..doesnt matter cuz we tot tt sittin in the water would be enuf..so sat there..sun shone..and after awhile we left..cuz we got hungry again lolx..rinsed off and headed on to eatin the remainin food..*munch munch*..we watched some bird show thingy and headed over to coffee bean cuz the gals wanted a cold drink..den we spotted it..some chairlift in the distance..checked it out and WOAH! there was a luge ride! so me, sj and jo paid for a one ride fee (tim dint wan to ride) and took the ride up the slope..sj was like petrified when our legs almost touched the tree..and they suddenly realised how high the chair was off the ground..lolx..they were swearin and shoutin and yea..all the girl stuff which are done when they are scared XDDD..reached out destination and continued to take the luge ride down the hill..DAMN FUN LA!! it felt like drivin some car down the slope with wind blowin thru ur hair..but tt thing had no motor! lolx..nxt time when i go ride tt..must pay for more than one time ride sia..cheaper..and..MORE FUN!! hhaax..as they advertised..one time is not enuf..jo said the advertisment we juz to bluff the customers to buy more..hahax..so afterwhich we headed back to siglap (again..hahax..our fav hangout place) for dinner and met with jeff there..after dinner we chit-chatted and started bitchin abt some ppl..hahax..shall not say names here..well..after gettin exhausted from tokin..we start to realise tt our shoulders started to feel pain..yea..poor 3 of us who went into the water..GOT SUNBURNT!! (like ouch la..) now is like monday early mornin at 2.15am..i only started peelin on sat nite la..so can u imagine tt i only peeled after 3days..now i feel like a lizard/snake/anything tt sheds their skin la >.<

thurs dint met them..but went out for lunch with my ex-chinese tuition teacher, ian and my godma..well..my teacher was oso ian's teacher..hahax..so went out makan..den headed back and yea..ian was goin out for a movie..so i tagged along cuz he was goin to watch..DREAMGIRLS!! like omg la..i wanted to watch tt movie since it came out but me no kaki T.T tt show rocks! lolx..damn retro..damn nice..damn wonderful! (ok i tink i must stop usin the word "damn" >.<)

fri..went to tekong to send tim off to his (or rather every enlistees') torture chamber..hahax..me, jo, sj and his cousin went there and like juz pei him..so sad la..his parents nv even send their son off at enlistment day..so sad..but in any case..there were still his wonderful frenz includin moi! XDD tekong ah..i went there and the 1st feelin i had was like..omg i will be here in like 1yr time..this is like a preview of wads to come la..i saw the obstacle course and my jaw like dropped open..im so gona die there la X.x although the place looked like a chalet..which is like super deceiving la..then we proceeded to auditorium where there was like a short presentation and the guys took some oath..the presentation with the short vids were like SOOOO propaganda-ish la..protect singapore! and blah blah blah..and the jingle sucks can..made my hair stand on ends cuz the whole thingy was like super corny..LAME! i love singapore..but i tink an army and guys MUST go in is juz stoopid la..ARMY..WHERE BOYS BECOME MEN..bull la..seriously..as i said..i love singapore..but i dislike the fact tt phrases like tt are used..its juz so..soo..AIYA DUNO WADS TT WORD I CAN USE LA..trainin us to fight for singapore..diaoz la..i tink the army is like used for free labour now la..not tt i can say tt things are still as safe in future but pls..aiya..shall not rant on this anymore..politics is juz not my thing..too complicated and too frustrating..thankfully the food wasnt tt bad but i doubt it will be tt way when the guys get food on "normal days"..i juz guessin tt the fact tt day had to be better cuz parents and frenz were goin to eat too so the food had to be better..hahax..afterwhich..had to say bye bye to tim..we separated at the entrance to the jetty and yea..jo was like "is this the part where we are suppose to cry?" man..tok abt funny..well..it was really hard to see my fren walk away..noeing tt torture awaits..die la..it will be my turn soon..MY HAIR!! EEKS!! XDDD o well..no choice..mayb my fear of spiders will help me in some way..well..lets see how..got back to mainland and foloed sj to ubi to sign up for drivin lessons..and after tt dinner with godparents! and it was home and slppppp.....

sat..went for jap..and yea..nothin much happened..had dinner and supper with parents..supper was good!! frog leg porridge..cheap somemore..hahax..now i noe where to get cheaper and reasonable priced frog leg porridge..

sun..went for lunch with parents and went to support my neighbour at some cantonese opera performance thingy..he was playin as guan gong and his partner was playin as a flirt/lady who was tryin to pull him over to her country..but being guan gong he stayed on his side and did not deflect..haha..tell u the truth..i dun understand cantonese..only basic stuff like tor jie (thank you), dai ka hou (da4 jia1 hao3)..lolx..and yea..miscellaneous words..i only noe of the story after his performance and he told us wad he was playin as..i was like sittin there juz appreciatin the music la..hahax..my dad said he would hav fallen aslp if the lights were slightly dimmer..lol..well..wad can u say..we are hokkien and cantonese is not in our dictionary..lolx..but..like i said..i was there for the music..after tt..dinner at al forno..italian! lolx..eat liao and it was home..and now im here typin la..

phew..super long post abt the past wk..2.42am..time for me to go slp..nite nite..*yawnz*

~y cant life be juz as simple as this? stoopid wars..stoopid conquests..y must there b fightin when there can be peace? when there is peace..life can b tt simple..~

14th feb..seems to be another day..

2007-02-14T22:45:00.000+08:00

14th feb..isnt tt valentine's day? for the whole day i feel the aura of love around..i see gals and guys dressed up and gettin ready for dates after lessons..i see guys holdin bouquets of flowers and the look of anticipation to giv tt special gift of the heart to his special girl..

well..for me..juz another day..a day which i juz feel the same routine over..juz tt 2day i had my MCT term test 2 which i tink its like SO BAD!! valentine's day = friendship day for singles? well..tts wad i heard and wad we all noe valentine's day as in sec sch..but..everywhere i go 2day..i feel tt aura..and i juz feel so left out..i feel like there's juz something incomplete..someone isnt here to fill up the space..guess there is a reason for everything ba..waitin for u..hope tt nxt valentine's day i will not feel this way again..hahax..

guess this really hit me abit harder 2day cuz 2day is like the day when love is in the air..

happy valentine's day to u lovers out there!! lolx..
happy friendship day to everyone out there!! hahax..

~i..love..lovin..miss..you..~

TGIF..lolx..

2007-02-09T15:17:00.000+08:00

*yawnz*..here we go with another round of slp inducin lecture..*YAWNZ*~

viruses,DNA,RNA,blah blah blah.. = BIG BIG BIG *YAWNZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz~*

well..TGIF..goin out with sj and tim later..SHOPPING..lol..well..guess for me is juz window shoppin..no $$$ T.T juz go take a look at clothes cuz i HAVENT DO CNY SHOPPING!! T.T anyone wana sponsor? XDDD money money money..its so funny..in a rich man's world..(quoted from ABBA's song..lolx..)

ok..my eyes are like closin on me..brain eye coordination not workin..lol..brain says open but eyes wana close.. (-.-)ZZZzzzzz....

juz another 1.5hrs more..lolx..only 30mins hav passed..i will survive this lecture..I WILL SURVIVE =x

~*********SNOOZE*********~

term test 2 nxt wk!!!!!

2007-02-08T19:05:00.000+08:00

my goodness..up to my neck with stress again..datelines to meet..need to study for nxt wk..si ge liao liao..lolx..

juz now went for drivin lesson..learn parkin and directional change..like omg la..i turn turn turn my head to check this check that..must check dun bang curb..but check safety..must check dun bang pole..check check check..until my neck become so suan la >.<

another happy update..hehe..MY GODPA GOT AYUMI'S CONCERT TIX!!! YAY YAY YAY!!! MWAHAHA..which means..IM GOIN HONG KONG IN APRIL!!! YAY YAY YAY!!! finally get to attend ayu's concert..everytime see in dvd nia..FINALLY LIVE!! YAY YAY YAY!!! this also means tt i hav to study hard to make up for this..lolx..

everyone in TP takin exams..like jiayou together!! ganbarimashou!! taken down the exams like they are juz cockroaches under the mercy of our shoes/slippers!!~~~

~die exams! DIE!! KILL U KILL U!! =x~

new day..but same old routine..

2007-02-07T08:13:00.000+08:00

lol..wad a sad title XDD but true leh..the only thing tt is new is tt..im wearin a new earring!!~~ lolx..*bling bling*..came to sch and like the 1st person to notice is ken..hahax..1st reaction.."woah! bling bling sia!" >.< haha..den other ppl started to say "wads with tt earring?" lolx..

now in MCT lecture..cant believe i woke up and made it in time la..overslept and like my mom had to ask me to wake up la!~ suppose to wake at 630 but like i fell back aslp..den my mom came in at 645 and she was like "nick ah..645 already..wake up..dun need to go sch meh?" damnit..if not i juz continue slpin liao la.. =x

ok la..me better listen to the lecture..ciao!~

~gearin up to study now..i havent work this hard b4..~

lol..paiseh nv update..

2007-02-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

lol..its been awhile..well..been bz with other stuffs so like nv blog..sowwie sowwie...juz giv latest updates ba..hahax..

driving test date has been booked..im takin it on 16th april..hope tt i can pass den i CAN DRIVE TO SCH!! MWAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!! (provided i can get the car from my mom >.<)

went chinatown with my parents on sat..supposed to meet eve there by COINCIDENCE..but..the place was like packed with ppl..squeeze here squeeze there (pls dun tink dirty thank you very much..i very clean de..holy and pure XDDD)..den me bought some stuffs..lol..must take the opportunity cuz my parents there..walking ATM XDD kidding kidding..mm..me bought myself new pjs (pyjamas..if tts how u spell it..aiya..home clothes la..lolx..)..guess wad..KIMONOS..mm..kimono for ger de right..lolx..i duno how to say the male ones..aiya..the male kind of jap clothes la..lolx..den me bought snackies..1.5kg worth of dried pessimons..LOVELY TASTE..lolx..left 0.5kg in hougang and 1kg brought back here to my godma's place..well..0.5kg is like only 6-7pieces nia..but their taste so addictive..yumz..also..me bought alcohol..hehe..chinese rice wine..something tt i always see in the chinese kung fu shows..hahx..nü er hong..lolx..something tt is always in the films is now in my hands!! MWAHAHAHAHHAH!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ the taste is different la..lolx..at least something different from beer or wine..very the cheena taste..hahax.. >_<

so aniwaes..term test 2 for the non-examinable subjs around the corner..well..its nxt wk..den exams for the other 2 examinable subjs after chinese new yr..3wks time..got presentations and assignments due..shitty man..CNY oso so difficult to celebrate..nv worked so hard b4 =x
so in any case..gearin up for hard work now..got so many things in my head..not only sch stuffs tt is..lol..well..cant really mention here..if not deep dark inner tots will leak out liao..hehe..

oki..me better go slp le..tml early day..nitez!~

~miss u..missin u..love u..lovin u..~

i HATE ubi-eunos area

2007-01-18T18:56:00.000+08:00

juz came back from drivin lesson..did U-turnin 2day..my goodness la..stoopid area so FULL of traffic..FUCKIN SINGAPOREAN DRIVERS..CANT U FREAKIN WAIT AND LET ME LEARN U SICKENIN BASTARDS!! chiong here chiong there..overtake and squeeze squeeze squeeze..i so kan chiong 1st time drive so HEAVY TRAFFIC..bloody hell..later from fine become i bang ur car la! idiots..if cannot wait den dun drive la! one big L plate behind my car u cannot see isit?!?! #$%!%!%$#!$%^%$&#

irritating la..den the stoopid sky..rain den stop..rain den stop..make me on and off my wiper in like 3-4mins interval..ARGH!! I AM IN SUCH A RANTING MOOD 2DAY!! stress liao..

aniwae..movin away from driving..i noticed a change of attitude around me..duno if its me or wad..mayb my old character is actin up again..pissin ppl off or something..duno la..either tt or its a new yr and ppl change towards their new yr resolution..either tt or mayb i keep stickin to the rules..den ppl wana change..duno la..i FUCKIN DUNO!! mayb i tinkin too much again >.<

howeva..weird la..cuz i did some readins for myself..divination or like inner self readin or wadeva u wana call it..at this pt of time in my life i hav power to affect changes in my life..i hav the power to succeed in wad i wana do..i juz hav to put effort in it..whether this thing is spiritually or physically..i hav to start chantin more and studyin den..lolx..develop myself spiritually and physically..(duno if tt implies on my body mass XD)

well..abt the environment around me..mayb im juz too sensitive..tinkin too much again like i ALWAYS DO..kinda sad and stressful sometimes though..but somehow or rather i keep gettin the feelin tt something bad is happenin..bad in the sense tt rumours are like spreadin and ppl are like tokin behind my back..shitty right? mayb i juz tinkin too much..mayb its true..wadeva..i shall juz stay this way..unless i really find something wrong..den things hav to change den..right now..i havent found anything..im juz feelin..blah blah..

2day open house..mad rush of students..my frenz and i went to sch earlier to get the booth set up..ken's drawin skill is unbeatable sia..draw a cell like a cartoon character..lol..n evey was there too!! surprisingly she was the EARLY!! guess she really changin..for the better..lol..juz hope she can adapt to wakin up early and still hav enuf rest ^.^ dr lim bought mcdonald breakfast for us! lolx..but i only ate it like at 11plus..which became my brunch (howeva u spell it..duno whether its branch or brunch XD)..like i said..waves of students came and went..and there is a certain person which keeps on commentin on our booth..BLAH BLAH!! tok tok tok and no action..u tink so easy to set up booth isit? den u come do it la..only noe how to tok tok tok..and i noticed something..wheneva he/she walks near the booth..no students came!! LOLX..coincidence? or juz jinx? i choose jinx XD..

ok i was abit evil..MWAHAH!! duno la..i oso like so rantin mood 2day..abit irritated and stressed out abt wads goin on around me..i wana juz go to the beach and SHOUT OUT LOUD!! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JUZ GIMME A BREAK LA!!! I WAN SOME PEACE AND JOY NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahax..mayb abit too exaggerated..aniwae..i better go bathe now..dinner soon..ciao!~

~one does not noe abt how he is affectin others unless he is told of it..(and it seems tt im tt useless one T.T)~

reminiscing..(hope i spelt tt correctly >.<)

2007-01-17T23:50:00.000+08:00

as the title says it..i was tinkin of the past..juz tinkin..happy and special moments in 2005..well..tt yr pretty special for me la..for me to know for u to find out..only frenz can noe XD..aniwae..happy mid 2005..den sickenin end 2005 early 2006..tt was like the suckiest time of my life la..rumours..slanders..my name very nice to vandalise right..FUCKERS..

kinda mad now though..hahax..actually i told chris tt day to forgive but nv forget..somehow..i juz remembered the past and it juz kinda pisses me..its not me to get angry..juz tt if u cross the line den *BANG* finito..u see the exploded nick..

got something to say abt me..say it into my face pls..dun spread lies abt my life..

got something u wana talk abt which involves me..say it into my face..dun spread false blown up shit to the world..

got something u dun like abt my character or attitude..say into my face..i would love to change something tt pisses ppl off..

main thing is..if there is something abt my character or attitude tt is juz not right..say it..not tt i will kill u or something..if i dun change my behaviour..wun i juz piss the life outta ppl in future?? im very open..i nv flare up unless my patience is tested..u test my patience..den i shall test urs..simple..u dun cross the line..neither would i..

i used to shut ppl up and ans a question which wasnt even directed to me..i dint notice my actions..frenz didnt like it..told me..and i changed..simple..i dint like get angry with them or wateva..soooooooo.........we hav mouths for a reason..

lies and rumours nice to spread meh? defamation and slanderin very fun meh? facts should be confirmed b4 sayin pls..if not false "facts" are being spread..when spreadin starts..like wildfire..it grows..bigger and bigger till it gets outta control..den nice la..become i some backstabbin bastard..wadeva..past is past..i juz cant believe wad happened at tt complicated pt of life..

~False words are not only evil in themselves, but they infect the osul with evil - Plato~

snoozing AGAIN! lolx..

2007-01-16T08:35:00.000+08:00

i really cant take it anymore!! >.< i dun understand y i juz keep automaticaly fall aslp in dr quek's lecture..duno whether its his voice or it juz tt he emphasizes things till he repeat over and over..*yawnz..SLEEP*

i can feel my eyes shuttin down..hahax..den i can feel my head bobbing abt..i fell aslp again! lol..lucky i got my laptop now in sch..tryin to stay awake by bloggin XD

later go ABCHM..stoopid PBL subject..one of my members doesnt seem to be doin his/her job..i dun wana say names but its juz really gettin on my nerves..ITS GROUP WORK U IDIOT!! NOT DO "WAD WE ASK U TO DO"..U NOE WAD COOPERATE AND DO TOGETHER?!?! IF U NV TURN UP FOR TUTORIAL AND WADSOEVA DEN Y WASTE UR TIME COME TO SINGAPORE AND STUDY IN POLY?!?! START MOVIN UR ASS U NUMBSKULL!! !#$#^!%#$#$%&$^##$!

AIYA..y waste my energy again..lol..juz when i told han yin to stay happy..lolx..contradicted myself now..mm..i always complain in sch tt i slpy..hahax..but at least im happy ba..but i guess for some of my frenz it gets kinda irritating to come to sch and hear another fren say he/she is slpy..hahax..well..guess i must start to stop sayin tt im slpy le..hahax..*AWAKE*..

i see the words "last slide" on the screen..yay..salvation..lolx..but sadly after this ABCHM..eeYUR! so irritated..now must do backup of tt part cuz tt member so unrealiable..ARGH!! this wk bz bz bz too..got alot of things to prepare and things tt need to be done..ok..gotta chao..ciao!~

~must stay awake..must stay awake!!~

wad a weird dream..

2007-01-09T20:08:00.000+08:00

i went to bed for a short nap juz now..was juz simply TOO TIRED!! aniwae..i had a weird dream..puttin it here b4 i forget..

dreamt tt i went to sch..however..it wasnt day..and also dint seem to hav a day in my dream world..juz tt it rained in the "supposed" nite and the rain stopped in the "day"..anyway..i knew tt it was sch..but it wasnt singapore..weird right..i rent 2 lockers in my dream..one which is the locker im renting now and another one..which doesnt exist on my sch grounds..under the stairs of the overhead bridge leading into sch..ok so like..i went to put some stuffs into the locker at the overhead bridge (cant remember wad stuffs) and it was raining..there was this crow..BABY crow..abit on the cute side..hahax..but it was i TINK callin me stupid in jap..i cant remember wad it said..but vaguely tts wad i tink it was la..after tt..there was this bat..it could talk..it reminded me of someone in my dream..but unfortunately i forgot who it reminded me of >.<

then there was a transition to the next day..well..more like the end of the day at sch..den it was our prom nite..damn cool la..and the theme was to be urself..so everyone dressed up nicely and stuffs..but i dint dream abt tt part at the prom..more like i dreamt abt the part we were goin home..me,ken,han yin, evelyn, yeen shien, and another unknown gal and guy..we took the bus..den i definitely knew tt my dream wasnt singapore..cuz the place looked entirely different! its like we were super close frenz la..like super glue close..im still tryin to figure who was the guy and gal though..den 1st to alight the bus was ken, den tt gal, but cant remember whether eve alighted..cuz after tt i only remembered seein me, han yin, yeen shien and the other guy..and there were some other passengers on the bus..hahax..mayb the bus was like the bus of frenship or something..

here's the anticlimax..i woke up T.T..its like..a dream of frenship..kinda weird..we were like brudders and sistas..mayb its like wad i hope for in a frenship..i duno..dreams..do they mean anything? well..i believe they do so..hahax..be it tellin the future or our deepest desires..hahax..dint noe a nap lidat can giv me such a dream..well..will keep in mind..hahax..better eat dinner now and finish off my MCT..tml must hand in..ciao!~

~i juz wana do things tt makes me happy~

LONG DAY!!

2007-01-08T14:35:00.000+08:00

tired tired tired!!! 2day..start sch at 9..den later got driving lesson at 4.25pm..end at 6.05..den must take cab (GOT BLOODY PEAK HOUR SURCHARGE!! @#%@#$%!@!@#$) BACK TO SCH AGAIN!! got chinese orchestra until 10..sian 0.5 sia..and i hav to finish up my essay by wednesday..and tml got ACBHM project meetin..AND I HAVENT SEARCH FOR ANYTHING YET!! sian sia..this wk like bloody freaking BUSY!! i need a break..BREAK BREAK!! lolx..although the hols juz passed..i still in holiday mood la..im so dead if i continue to be lidat..

(X.X) (X.x) (x.x) (x.X) (X.X)

hahax..aniwae..yesterday went for kok yong's bbq..celebrate his bday..and also..ended up str8ening my hair..looks abit weird though..but..hahax..try something different..DARE TO BE DIFFERENT!! opinions are for ppl to say..as long as u feel happy in wad u doin is fine..and definitely the thing u doing is not wrong or hurtin someone else's feelins la XD..but....sometimes its unfair and there may b a need to stand up for urself (i seem to be goin round in circles..turn turn turn..)

now in library..nothin to do..and my eyes are like closin..tired and boring..bad mixture..SUPER BAD CONCOCTION..both of which leads to slp..*yawnz*..feel like closin my eyes and juz get 40winks..better get a nap b4 goin for drivin..later bang car XD *choi choi choi..touches wood* lolx..juz got reminded for ken's joke..han yin is the wood! hahax..*touches han yin* >_<

bloody la..im so tired!! 2nite go home must chiong essay..ARGH!! THIS IS INSANE..and damn stressful later la..chinese orchestra i may hav to play a solo part..sounds glamorous but..kinda scary..damn scared tt will zhou3 yin1..somemore it si hui fight for me one..so duno if good or bad..hahax..if not someone else will play the solo part..hav to practice hard liao..concert this sunday..STRESS!!~

LOLX..now my ipod playin this cute song...Cutie Honey..sang by koda kumi..but the original song is in korean..sang by Ayumi Lee..*WOOT* SHE HAS THE SAME NAME AS MY IDOL..AYUMI HAMASAKI!! *WOOT*..waitin for the time to pass..another 30mins more den i can chao..must take but go ubi..*sobz*..i dun wana take cab back...................$$$$$$$$ fly away..

aiya..time for me go slack la..hahax..must chiong like mad this wk for my sch stuffs liao..CHIONG AH!!!

~u finally replied..was worried..now i feel much better..~

MOS!! 1st clubbing exp..

2007-01-06T22:52:00.000+08:00

fri nite was my 1st nite where i had my virgin clubbin experience..went with shu jing, joanne and jeffery..and..IT WAS SO FREAKIN FUN!! I LOST MYSELF TO THE MUSIC..trance was the music in the main arena..it was crazy..dance dance dance..danced like for more than 4plus hrs la..den went over to the retro room..i grew up on tt music sia..SO FUN!! the only place which sucked was the R&B room..cuz i cant lose myself to tt kind of music T.T lolx..juz like move move nia..den it became really CROWDED when we tried goin back in after dancin at the main arena..squeeze squeeze squeeze..den when wana move move abit..ppl will walk den bang into them..cant even dance for the shit of it..(lol..werid expression i used..but i tink u get the point..) aniwaes..danced till the club close..which was like 430am..den went over to linag court's mac..and suddenly..*BOOM*..the exhaustion kicked in..tired cuz like i danced like mad la..and the gang said tt they could really see my enjoy myself..well..wad can u expect from someone who got lost in the trance music..but the music loud until now my ear still like half blocked..den like got ringing sound..went to check online den say i got this condition called tinnitus..lol..cuz caused trauma to the eardrums due to the loud music..

wa lao..damn fun sia..i really wana go clubbin again..but must start savin $$ spent quite abit sia..but for the fun..it was worth it..and..my 1st time drinkin a 75% alcohol content drink..BARCARDI 151..*WOOT*..shiok sia..except tt cannot drink to much..if not burn the liver sia..hahax..dance dance dance..now my body oso abit the aching..hahx..4 and a half hours of cardio..tink lost quite abit of calories..hahax..

o well..time to get back to work..hav an assignment to finish..stoopid..at 1st say 500words den i go summarise everything..den suddenly say now not really got word limit..2000 is a good average..DIAOZ!~ now must go find back all my info and type it in..10% of my subj marks leh!! SO HIGH!! SO EXPENSIVE FOR AN ESSAY!! lolx..okok..better run..ciao!~

~where u? u disappeared again..haiz..y always lidat??~

OMG ITS COMIN SOON!!

2006-12-29T02:03:00.000+08:00

2007 is around the corner..a new yr is startin again..means a new term startin too!! (DIE..havnt started doin up my assignments >.<)..hav u tot of ur new yr resolutions yet? haha..well..me hav kinda tot of a few liao..

1st..must practice more piano..and guitar..cannot get rusty..although my guitar skills abit the sad now..ABIT on the rusty side liao..*sobz*..

2nd..MUST STUDY HARD..must try my best to push up GPA..though my term test abit the sad too..

3rd..must start to cut down on spendin..meanin snack less in sch..everytime snack snack snack den $$$ gone gone gone..must start to increase the amt of moolar in the bank..

4th..do more chantin..havnt been doin much prayers lately..been slackin off..no wonder my personal benefits like not on the good side..NAM-MYO-HO-RENGE-KYO..lol..well..a prayer which hav always been on my mind from long ago is good health,safety,longevity,great growth,happiness and success in work and studies of my family and frenz..i feel happiness is the most impt..cuz when u r happy..things fall into place easily and one does not fall so hard cuz the bright side will always be looked upon..

aniwae..juz tinkin back..it felt like it was juz yesterday when 2006 started..or rather..when i entered poly the 1st day..in the middle of 2005..man..time is too fast..i juz wana go back in time to re-live tt time..cuz i felt the most carefree at tt time..but it was during the end of 2005 and early this yr tt i learnt the most things in life..things which happened to me and things which i did to ppl..how i got affected and how i affected them..some stuffs i regret..some stuffs i laughed at my silliness (<-duno if i spelt correctly..mayb dun even hav such word)..some stuffs i cried abt some stuffs which i had joy from..so many things hav happen..yet it felt like only yesterday..*sigh*..guess this is y we hav memories..the snapshots in the flashin passage of time..time is so fast tt the only time we hav..is to take "photos" and keep it in our "album"..yet the sad thing..the "album" may b misplaced and the "photos" are forgottened..

memories may be forgotten..but..ppl will not b..ppl come and go..some stay..some dun..those who go leave footprints with their names engraved in it..i hav footprints too..but some i hav filled up and clearly removin any traces of them..cuz some ppl are juz not worth to imprint their footprints..

time has passed and i hav learnt quite a number of lessons..im proud tt i hav matured quite abit..although tt childish nature of mind comes out..things like whackin shane!! LOL..THX BRO FOR LETTIN ME WHACK U..hahax..guess we always hav tt child in us..

well..now its the 29th of dec 2006..21hrs 10mins to 30th..and another 24hrs to 31th..and another 24hrs to 1th of jan 2008..total up..69hrs 10mins to the 1th..very soon we students will hav tt mistake of writing 2006 in our dates instead of 2007..hahax..must get ready to start shiftin to 2007..

oki..gettin late..me better go sleep liao..good nite world..good nite the remainin 2plus days of 2006..good nite to the memories of 2006..i really cherished the time spending away 2006..too many memories liao..haha..nitez..

~if only memories can be re-lived by literally choosin tt scene of the DVD title "my life" in the imaginative TV screen in our minds~

Beautiful by Kelvin Fok

2006-12-26T01:49:00.000+08:00

he's a local singer..heard this song from the short film The Letter..THIS SONG SO NICE!! here are the lyrics..i tried to figure out some of the words cuz i couldnt find the exact lyrics..yea..in short..i hear and typed it out myself XDD so clever right.. =X aniwae..here it is..

I don’t know
If I am the one for you in this life
I can’t help hearing my voice calling your name
Cause when I
Trying so hard not to look in your eyes
Maybe I
Have fallen in love with you

I can’t so describe how I’m feeling deep inside
So much more than I can say with your touch it feels so right
Oh my you’re so near all the time in this place
For I know in my heart I will never let you go in this lifetime
Do you know why oh baby
Cause you’re just so beautiful to me

Well tonight
Baby the sound I can hear you breathe
It’s alive to see you smile with those tears in your eyes
They may say
That you’re just a girl in this beating world
In my heart
You’re like a world to me

I can’t so describe how I’m feeling deep inside
So much more than I can say with your touch it feels so right
Oh my you’re so near all the time in this place
For I know in my heart I will never let you go in this lifetime
Do you know why oh baby
Cause you’re just so beautiful to me

Touch my hand
Feel my heart
Hold me close and you’ll find me
You’ll find me
So beautiful
To me

~ppl come and go..leavin behind footprints..marks which stays in our hearts foreva..~

xmas eve is here..

2006-12-24T15:16:00.000+08:00

its here..xmas eve is here..in 8hrs and 45mins more it will be xmas day..*sigh*..where is tt special person which i can spend xmas with neh? lol..i shall wait here like this till u come..*hugs the air*..lalalalaa...

xmas xmas xmas..another day of makanin..lol..goin to meet sj later..she, kelwin and tim comin over..but sadly tim comin late..cuz he has to folo his parents go his grandparents' place..this yr is different for him cuz his mom suddenly wana eat turkey! LOLX..funi..jeff may b comin too..so sad..cant spend time with his gf (jo) cuz she in vancouver..day of family and frenz..fun and food..hahax..XMAS..

man its rainin again..stoopid weather..ITS XMAS EVE LA..CANT U JUZ GIV US SOME GOOD WEATHER TO CELEBRATE AND SOCIALISE?!?! stoopid sky..stop rainin and giv us some peace..u hav been rainin the past few days liao..so much water to let go meh?!?!

lol..o well..at the end of 2day..it will be xmas day..it will also mean tt there is only one more wk left of hols!! ARGH!! ITS TOO SOON..i havent done my assignment..*blehx*..i juz wana laze and rot XDD too lazy to do anything..*yawnz~*..

blah blah...me better go help out..ciao..

~Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year~

POTLUCK AT EVE'S

2006-12-23T01:51:00.002+08:00

PARTY!! well..not so parrtttyyy...lol..more like makan session..and with lots of leftovers..with LOTS of DA PAOS!! lolx..ate and da pao home..well..we did play games la..play zong1 ji4 mi4 ma3 till me,wilson and kai yan got drawn all over our faces with lipstick..i look like..erm..*TOOT* la..hahax..and ken i really salute to u if ur stomach survived wateva the gang gav u..HAHAX..mm...wat else..oo ya..hahax..got cheryl dancing pole dance (with han yin as the pole..)..got javen pumpin over eve..got javen and han yin pumpin over EACH OTHER..lol..sadly is juz face over face..would hav been more HEATED UP if mayb the face went over some place else >.< lol..*imagines*..OOO...HOT...*sizzles*...hahax..

hoped everyone enjoyed the orange cake..whoeva ate it tt is..there was SOOOOO much food tt we had to da pao..haha..i dint packed anything cuz it would juz go to waste tml..aniwae..had fun..could hav been more of a wild party though..but some unreasonable,depressed woman who lived below eve had to spoil it by complainin..partyin every friday..yea right..she can go party with her miserable self everyday..tink party so easy to plan isit? we got so much $$$ isit? we got so much time isit? wadeva..*rambles on...*

o well..xmas comin soon..in another 46more hours..22more hours to xmas eve..PARTY AT MY GODMA'S PLACE!! lol..another makan session..hahax..gosh im growin fat >_< lolx..but..njoy now la..hahax..army come den die..hahax..MY POOR HAIR..i dun wana cut it..so nice..so soft..so smooth..so *does tt sexy erotic look*..hahax..

lala..better go slp le..got this STOOPID zit growin on my face..if i dun slp den it will realli erupt..YUCKS..spoils my lovely complexion *sobz*..lol..NITEZ!~

~xmas xmas xmas..i wana spend this day with someone special special special...~

>.< IT KEEPS RAINING!!!

2006-12-19T15:18:00.000+08:00

my gawd!! it has been raining since sunday..rain rain rain..den last wk the weather so hot hot hot..man the weather is crazziiiieeee!!!!!~~~~

all i wan is some sunny weather den can go swimming..*looks out window*..man it juz started raining again..and it juz stopped 10mins ago..stoopid..well..thurs better be SUNNY, WARM AND ANYTHING ASSOCIATED WITH THE SUN!! cuz the gang goin to sentosa..I WANA SUNTAN!! i becomin abit the white white liao..(xiao bai lian..>.< a cute one tt is XDDD) lolx..

boredom takin over..i duno wad to do sia..so boring..the things tt can be done at home already done liao..lolx..*looks out window again*..WA LAO..THE RAIN GOT HEAVIER..the sky either very sad or takin a LOOONNNGGGG SHOWER..lol..(boredom has fried the common sense..)

o well..lemme go find something else to do..rot into front of the tv or something..*YAWNZZZZ~~* i really need out..lolx..ciao..

~this weather reminds me of Ayu's Rainy Day~
~http://ayumi.primenova.com/lyrics/rainyday.htm~

snooze

2006-12-05T10:56:00.000+08:00

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....
lol...fell alsp in lecture juz now again..juz as her mouth opened..my eyes closed..lol..huang yan was recapping the topics for next week's term test..TERM TEST!! ARGH!! DIE DIE DIE!! >.<
must start studyin le..boot up memory space..yawn..but i keep fallin aslp XP..
50mins more till me next class..must giv a stoopid presentation..blah blah blah..western blot..blah blah blah..juz hope tt nxt sem the projects will be lesser..im like SO TIRED!! stoopid shitty sucky projects..blah blah..

(>.<)
(>.<)
(>>.<<)
(>>>.<<<) (wrinkles..lolx..must put more facial)

my face is like..complexion is like..deteriorating..*sobz* not enuf slp..den my face..ARGH!! THE HORROR..later cannot let ppl see my face..(pulls paper bag over face)..lol..must take care liao..mayb later when get home can relax with facial mask..must try the new mask i got from The Face Shop..hope its good..lol..

lol..im like typin this post now when my group members are like goin thru the presentation la..*feels guilty*..well..im like SUPER LAZY now..zombie-fied..*stones and stares into space*..

well..me better go back..if not im like so xtra..I LIKE SO WANA GO SHOPPIN IN TOWN!! GIV ME $$..LOLX..

~*bootin up system*~

blah blah blah....rant rant rant..

2006-11-21T15:15:00.000+08:00

here goes "golden mother" and her nonsensical blah blah blahz...she will always need to repeat herself cuz no one understands her XDDD wateva..mayb its juz us..lolx..

aniwaes..im like so goin mad with projects!!~~~ bloody hell...one after another!!~~~ *runs off to murder someone* sianz sia..hand in one..pops up one..*slams wall*..ARGH!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~

lolx..juz now the gang was like tokin abt X-men..until everyone is a marvel character..Zzz...like sooooooooo lamez~~ XDDDD

lol..im juz so like in a ranting mood..cuz im like so SIAN 0.5..lolx..*yawnz*..

~blah blah blah..rant rant rant..*continues*~

screws loosening..GOIN MAD!!

2006-11-17T11:17:00.000+08:00

kinda funny right..lolx..now i in yr2 sem2..only in the 4th sem tt i ever felt like i m actually workin so hard..PBL is driving me NUTS!! stoopid sia..STRESS STRESS STRESS..no mood to listen to golden mother (jin mar mar XDDD) tok..*blah blah blah*..i only noe she was tokin abt the NEW PROJECT (FUCK SIA..PROJECT ONE AFTER ANOTHER..)..now givin lec..which im like TOTALLY switched off..

but..on the other hand..she pronounced "fertilizer" as "FARTilizer" and "algae" as "LJ" LMAO!! imagine the farmer fartin onto the plants..LOLX..an algae morphing into an LJ >.<>.<)

~engine needs to be warmed up faster..if not i will blow up!~

yawnz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2006-11-14T08:18:00.000+08:00

8am in the morning on tues..gene gene gene..everyone so slpy and mdm huang is askin the same question over and over again as if she were talkin to zombies..well..technically..the LT IS FILLED WITH ZOMBIES..wow..after like 5mins den she finally realised tt our brains havent really fully booted up XD

lol..brought my laptop to sch to do some STOOPID PBL..so tot take the opportunity to type a post..lolx..well..if me dun type or rather even if i dint on my com i will juz simply fall aslp..*snooze*..

*growl* >.< my stomach..hungry.............................lunch time only at 11.............................hope mr kok let us go earlier later..lolx..

aiya..me better listen liao..gotta feelin she finishin recapping le..ciao~

~drivin mad..I WANA LEARN DRIVING~

sleepy sleepy..snooze

2006-11-07T21:37:00.000+08:00

lol..my title of this post is wad i hav been doin in lectures XDD..wa lao..wad can u expect when u hav to be in sch by 8 on tues,wed and fri sia..den STOOPID PBL..GO JIA SAI LIM JIO KE CHIA LONG LA!! wad a way to learn stuff..

"allocate the tasks to ur group members, go home research den learn from each other.."

WADEVA!! *PBBBBTTTTTTT* (tongue stickin out)
cant believe got such thing sia..*slams wall*..well..other than work..gotta practice my dizi..i like SCREWED UP on my 2nd day at combind prac la..*sobz*..

o well..must practice practice practice..soloist in the makin..HEHE..(cuz im the only person playin bang1 di2..a part in the dizi section..1 PERSON!! ALONE DAMNIT!! STRESS STRESS!! *breathe in breathe out*)

aiya..buay tahan liao..must go sleep le..*snooze*..

~*snoooooorrreeezzzzzzzzzzz*~

school = murderer

2006-10-27T12:06:00.000+08:00

like lolx..but sch..seriously is a muderer..OF TREES!! XDDD well..1st wk of sch already and we need to use up like duno HOW MANY pieces of paper..right now in my file should hav roughly like 60-70 pieces of paper la..stoopid..poor trees *sobb...*

anyway..me,ken,javen and ys in com lab now..PRINTIN!!! ys juz said tt we like ying4 shua1 chang3 LOL..print print print..*sounds of the printer printin*..so many documents den make us to blurrrrrrrr.....

stoopid sia..holdin back my hunger..HUNGRY!! ARGHHHH!! I NEED NOURISHMENT!! XDDD
oki..time to chao..ciao!~ XDDD

~lalala..sch reopen..lalala...sch sux...~

y lidat again........

2006-10-14T04:38:00.000+08:00

well..as my title says it..history seems to be repeatin itself..things doesnt seem to be goin well and well..something tells me tt something bad will happen soon..juz hope tt its juz a misunderstandin and not wad i tink it is..

~disappointed..shitty bittersweet fucked up life..~

oct 2006 le...so fast..

2006-10-09T00:58:00.000+08:00

wow..time sure does fly..its already the 10th month of 2006..ITS TOO FAST!!

well..got myself a ear piercing le..tt happened 2wks back when shu jing was in town..pierced my left ear..my mom dint noe until i told her 3days later..she tot tt i was wearin the fake stud (the magnetic kind)..well..she was disappointed cuz she told me b4 tt she dint allow me to get a piercin den i had to say ok cuz she will keep on naggin and naggin..den when i got my piercin she was like "I TOT I TOLD U CANNOT?!?! Y U STILL GO PIERCE?!?!" she was juz disappointed tt i dint listen to her but i "warned" her liao (not the " " cuz i duno how to say express) tt for the piercin i will do it sooner or later..cuz i really wanted to get one..when i said i dint promise her tt i wouldnt get a piercin she was like "so tt means things tt i dun wan u to do i must make sure u promise la?!?!" den i said "no..i dint say tt.." to continued to

"no more ok..one is enuf.."

"okok i wun touch my right ear" (cuz i wanted another on my left ear..makin it total of 2)

"nono..no more..even on left ear cannot..cross ur heart!" (den she use her finger and cross MY heart..lolx..and she was like laughin..)

"okok..fine fine..no more"

so well..guess one if enuf..den when i went downstairs to eat..she came down and was like "on ur cousin's weddin i lend u my diamond stud ya.." lolx..so comical..it was like 360 degrees change..i told shaun and he said some chinese idiom abt no matter how fierce the tiger is, it still wont eat its young..guess tts true..

now its 1.02am..9 days into oct le..2more mths to the end of the yr..the days draw closer to my frenz' O and A levels..jiayou guys and gals!! u all can do it!! for me..sch is startin soon *boohoo*..den term test will be here b4 i noe it..

o well..guess time flyin by is inevitable..tml got chinese orchestra..finally got into the da4 zhu3..im oso hopin to join the soka chinese orchestra..now waitin for the call from the head cuz me left my particular with the admin ppl at the hq..hahax..

me better go wash up and slp le..abit sleepy..nitez!~

~time waits for no man..me juz wana make more happy precious memories to keep..~

she's back!!

2006-09-20T01:39:00.000+08:00

lolx..shu jing is back in singapore...unfortunately until nxt thurs nia T.T but o well..better than nothing..hope to go shoppin with her nxt monday!! WEE!! lolx..SHOPPING IS FUN!! (even if it is juz window shoppin..)

juz now went to meet her with timo..den went down to the airport for coffee cuz she wana meet her darlin' Kelwin..*ooooo* lolx..took 36 down den alighted at terminal 1 and took the skytrain over..and i went to buy my lovely BO LUO BAO..*yum*..den shu jing..sayin tt she dun wana miss the mooncakes this yr (so sad..melbourne mooncakes can win singapore's XD..i dun even noe if hav or not..lolx..) so anyways..walked over to starbucks and popped over to Bengawang Solo and I BOUGHT myself mooncakes..to compensate for last yr cuz i dint eat..*sobz*..den sj again bought a mooncake..for her darlin'~ XD

at starbucks..me got myself PUMPKIN SPICE LATTE..sounds weird right..cuz the taste is like SUPER interesting la..LOVE IT!~ must drink it until it goes outta season..lolx..den we ate our mooncakes..(heavenly sinful mixture..LOL)

and the time of arrival of kelwin..we got ourselves down to the arrival area and waited..and guess wad..sj scared of her future mother-in-law!! but cant blame..if i were her..i would be also scared..her jokes were like..erm..duno leh..like jokin-yet-indirectly-rao4-yi4-quan1-shoot-ni3..either tt or WE juz tinkin too much..hahax..so she passed the mooncakes over to him and juz when we were abt to split..tim and i felt excluded like dian4 teng1 pao4 cuz he gav her a kiss..well..sj dint expect it too cuz its infront of HIS PARENTS!! lolx..wadeva..parents nia..hahax..if kelwin dun kiss his gf den kiss who? lolx..

so we spilt..turned down kelwin's dad's offer of a lift and took the mrt back to tanah..den walked to tim's place there to slack and tok..catch up abit..den discussed until tok abt go aussie at the end of this yr!! I HOPE I CAN GO!! WEE!! lolx..with frenz..without the bother of the parents..lolx..but no money den no choice..must stay at home T.T (somemore got the driving lessons to tink abt..stoopid...so expensive..*pbbt*)

well..tml..wednesday..another day of the hols gone..Y SO FAST?!?! i wan my hols..lolx..well..studyin isnt a choice of wan or dun wan..if dun study den no future le..*sadz*..well..all the best to the ppl in JC (my frenz), sec 4 (my juniors) and pri 6 (my student) and all else havin exams!! GANBATTE and study hard!! jiayou!!~

~frenz come and go eh? well..i hope tt most of my frenships lasts foreva..~

YAY..thanks guys..

2006-09-18T18:34:00.000+08:00

yay...bday juz over..juz went to get my basic theory date..wa lao so long sia..6 of nov..nvm..can read thru the book again..

aniwae..went out with shane and shaun yesterday..after jap class went yoshi at tamp to eat..den went down to suntec cuz nothin to walk at tamp..stoopid IMF..juz to get to suntec must walk to marina square, thru milliena walk den reach the fountain of wealth..walk sooooooo long..lolx..walk walk walk..

from suntec jump back to marina..den walk walk walk..found this shop which sells like jamaician stuffs..and guess wad..I FOUND THE PANTS WHICH I HAV BEEN LOOKIN FOR..there is this like draw-string pants the dancers were wearin the the "Fairyland" vid..AND I FOUND IT!! YAY!! lolx..bought it den we jalan-ed back to raffles city..had dinner at the soup spoon..the CLAM CHOWDER..*shiok*..hahax..

after tt me and cong split with shane and headed back towards the east side on the mrt but my mom called me..askin me to help my godpa with some computer trouble..so no choice..must postpone the meetin with da jie abit later..went back to solve the stoopid com trouble..(which unfortunately resulted tt iMac microsoft word documents cant be recognised and opened by Windows microsoft word)..den after tt went down to Miss U to meet da jie..fun fun fun..

thanks guys for spendin time with me on my bday..tt ian (godbro) havin prelims den dun wana go out for dinner..den in the end shift my bday "family" celebration to my lunar bday date..o well..even though the day was fun..my bday celebration is not complete until i go out with another close fren of mine..hehe..no choice..cant force ppl out if tt person bz mah..so waitin for tt day den i can say tt my bday celebration is over!~ (with the exception of my "family" celebration which is like i tink nxt wk..)

aniwaes..i better go bathe..juz came home after tea-cum-snack with the gang..me,shaun,ben,seng and vincent went to get the test date 2gether mah..hahax..oki..ciao!~

~cant wait for time to go by abit faster..XD~

MY GPA!!

2006-09-14T14:06:00.000+08:00

yesterday..the day of judgement..*brringgg!* (hp sms tone)..i picked up my phone..input in my phone's lock code and press the "read" button..

the moment of truth..*slience*

*STUNNED*

"WTF WTF WTF!! TIS IS NOT TRUE!! IM STILL SLEEPING!!"

obviously..my GPA dropped again..1st sem=3.92, 2nd sem=3.42..NOW=3.19..*cries*

i studied until my brain wana pop out liao lo..almost pulled my hair outta my head..now lidat..sigh..hope tt nxt sem can do better bah..*stress stress*..

ANIWAES...now juz rest for the hols bah..den sch start gear up again..omg its 2.05pm le..gotta run!! tuition student awaits..ciao!~

~*stunned*~

y always lidat..

2006-09-13T02:45:00.000+08:00

seems tt i ALWAYS love to tink too much..guess its juz my nature..*sadz*..anyway..mayb its juz tt im insecure..i duno..mayb tt im juz afraid to lose something impt..i duno..treasurin every moment of my life now..with my family and frenz..

wadeva..i juz somehow wished tt my life was so much simpler than this..

~stoopid bad karma...thank goodness for my religion tt i can change it and thus change my future..NAM-MYO-HO-RENGE-KYO!!!~

where are u???

2006-09-11T12:34:00.000+08:00

every now den then..im left clueless of wad to do..

no smses..no calls..no news..

go out with frenz? or juz stay home?

wat should i do???

reminiscing reminds me of wad happened in the past..

i dun wan tt to happen again..

but it seems tt now im the one left aside..

torn between wad to do..

time went by..things hav changed..

nothin was the same as b4..

*sigh*

how i wish i can return to the past once more..

~wishin tt things could b the same now as it was b4~

holiday holiday holiday!!!

2006-09-04T21:26:00.000+08:00

yay..finally...the period of time i hav been lookin 4ward to...HOLS!! damn stressed over exams..but now..FREE!! *breathe breathe*

hahax...well..help my da jie to teach her son tuition till PSLE..so at least hav some form of pay la..lolx..job part gao tim liao..

well..although now the poly ppl can take a breather..the 'A' lvl ppl and 'O' lvl ppl must jiayou ya!! GANBATTE NE!!

~memories made..memories shared..memories something we look back n wish tt more happy memories can be formed..let make some memories!!~

2 down 3 more to go!!

2006-08-28T16:27:00.000+08:00

*sigh of relief* 2 papers down..3 more crazy papers to go..FPATH, AIMM & BCHMII..madness i tell u..MADNESS!! *faints*

o well..at least 2day's paper..i have confidence tt can do above average..

tml is FPATH!! study study study!! to my frenz hav exams too..GANBARIMASHOU!!

~life of a student..lolx..~

2006-08-23T13:17:00.000+08:00

fun aint it?? 1st paper of my exams on fri, 9am.. its like the note are OVERWHELMING me man..crap shit crap shit..i see until luan oso lo..ZZZzzz..anyway..left like 2 more subjs to "run though"..thanks goodness i "ran though" and finished 3 other subjs..damit la..can 1 sept juz hurry come soooooon?!?!?! it would juz mean tt ITS THE LAST PAPER..lolx..o well..STUDY STUDY STUDY..*throws book out of window* XD jkjk..EVERYONE JIAYOU!! GANBARIMASHOU!! lets get this stoopid thing over and done with..

oo..lemme record a weird dream i had last nite..i was in sch (but it dint seem like sch cuz the place dint look like TP) and i went out the back gate near the sports complex to the HDB area for a jog (weird cuz TP's backgate near the sports complex doesnt lead to HDB area but the bedok reservior!! lolx..and y jog outside when i can jog on the track..duno..weird dream) den i jogged back into the sch backgate tt time..was kinda dark..and got alot of ppl goin to sch..den got this 2gals called my name and toked to me..frankly..i got NO IDEA who the hell were they..so nvm..as i walked towards the sch complex..suddenly the environment changed into this small back alley leadin to a HDB carpark (weird transition..UBER WEIRD MAN!! anyway the small alley is like the HDB area near heartland mall in kovan..) den after tt..this dog dashed at me and bit my arm..*OUCH* *ARGH* *PAIN & AGONY* (weird again cuz i felt the damn freakin fucked up pain from the dream..no joke)..my arm went numb after tt and this old man suddenly appeared from the back door of the shophouse and told me.."the dog must hav bitten ur nerve" (hello?!?! like..how in the world can a dog bite the nerve..ok..nvm..it is juz a weird dream..) den suddenly..transition again!! im suddenly in my room..in my bed..ITS JUZ A DREAM..and i woke up..SIAO SIA..SUPER DUPER UBER WEIRD DREAM!! 1st time i experience tt im dreamin of a dream in a dream *counts to make sure typed in correctly* XD

okok..1.25pm!! must go study le..ciao!~

~a dream in a dream..wow..okok..study study study..EVERYONE HAVIN EXAMS..JIAYOU!!~

FIREWORKS!! PRETTY...lolx...

2006-08-16T19:04:00.000+08:00

hey hey..here are the 3parts..didnt took from the beginning cuz like after a few minutes of snappin like mad..i realised can take vid instead of pix! lolx..anyways..my voice sounds UBER WEIRD!! lolx..must see me and hear me in real life den u can hear my real BEAUTIFUL, SWEET SOUNDING, GENTLE etc. etc. etc. VOICE..lolx..wadeva..well..njoy!~ (the "exploding" of the fireworks which flashes the night sky like got lightning or bombs!! XD)

and sorry abt the tree..SO ZHOR TANG!! stoopid thing..should be sawn down!! XD lolx..well no choice..the place was packed with ppl..like ant swarm..or bees swarm..lolx..wateva..so wanted to shout at some STOOPID UNCONSIDERATE BLOODY SHYTTY KNS PPL!! no brains..push push push..like cannot wait a little bit den folo the flow of the crowd to move meh!??! STOOPID PPL..PLS LA!! MAKE ME SO SHAMEFUL TO BE A SINGAPOREAN!! BLOODY ARSEHOLES!!

wadeva..wasted ATP typing that..more wasteful if i delete off!! XD time for dinner!! ciao!~

~singapore..duno whether to say good or bad..but im leaning to the side which says.."SUCKS"~

i shall slap myself once again..

2006-08-16T00:34:00.000+08:00

seems tt my weakness is tt i tend to tink too much easily..*slap slap slap*..(X.X#) lolx..

anyways..me wanted to like put the vids of the French fireworks i saw on sat..but STOOPID YOUTUBE DIED ON ME!! NABE!! (ok..sorry i shall try to refrain from vulgarities..XD) anyway..will try to upload another day..lemme upload a pix of my small "family"!! XD tt sat i finally got the bear i wanted at ther Cool Bear shop at the esplanade..SO CUTE RIGHT!! lolx..duno y suddenly the kid in me juz like came back..HAHAX..

Me with Nick Jr. Tan Xiongxiong, Zhuzhu and Xiao Zhuzhu..lolx..the pigs are from a special fwen of mine..^^

anyways..EXAMS ARE NEAR!! JIAYOU EVERYONE..although i like SO better start..hehehe...

98% charged..100% and i CHIONG!! lolx..must do my best le..must try to maintain tt idiotic GPA..drop anymore and i shall feel my wrath!! (lolx.. (X.X#) <-------remember??? WADEVA!! XD)

i tink i gettin more and more lame..*cold wind blows*..well cant help when u hav frenz like ken,javen and cheryl..lolx..sometimes there is juz a presence of cold wind..hahax..

o well..look at the time..12.41..better sleep if not i will juz die!! nitez!~

~the kid in me has returned!! *acts cute* like..lolx..~

sigh...dumbfounded again..

2006-08-13T21:34:00.000+08:00

wats goin on??? i duno...

wats happening??? i duno too...

will i eva noe??? i really duno...

will it be all okay at the end??? i really duno too...

i feel stupid and being kept in the dark..

wadeva..i juz wan the truth..if i can find out tt is..if there is a truth tt is

~thinking too much??? mayb...~

enlightenment??? lolx..duno

2006-08-12T00:10:00.000+08:00

something seriously juz dawned upon me..freaky though..after readin something...this life of mine..

COMPLICATED

FULL OF SHIT (FOS)

WATEVA

etc......

will be worse without my frenz..thanks guys for being there when i need someone..especially tim..

IM NOT GONA COMMIT SUICIDE IF TT IS WAT U TINK!! CHOI CHOI CHOI!! IM NOT SIAO!!

mayb i tinkin too much but..wateva..takin things as they come..if lidat den so be it..

im still young and i still hav many dreams to fufill..

wateva..life's shakey again..

mayb its juz me..

or mayb not..

wateva..

life..

~BRING IT ON!!~

PANGYA!!

2006-08-07T01:05:00.000+08:00

tis bad..i am gettin addicted to a game when exams are nearing...BAD NICHOLAS!! XD

but cant help it..pangya rox!! lolx..although i got comments tt its juz golf..but duno y this golf so addictive leh..so fun..hahax..

anyways..gotta go slp..tml got STOOPID fpath quiz..DOOMSDAY for moi..ciao!~

~more than words~

Images of my past...

time pls fly by..

i wan outta army..

The day..

CONCERT!!

reality check

fragile is life..

COSPLAY!

GRAD TML!!

*rants* AGAIN!!

im fine..

NODAME!!

apologies..

wateva..

SG FLYER!!

finally changed blogskin

GUZHENG LESSON!!

SO MA FAN!!

如果你还爱我

slackin time....

2years 9months 3days

GOT A JOB!! MWAHAH!!

uni!~

CNY CNY CNY!!

>_<

*goes crazy*

STRESSES UP!!

its almost the end of the yr

in the cold "chamber"

back in sg!!

4more days and 200th post

OMG AN iPHONE!!

finally..my last full wk..

18more days

crap..cam screwed up..

4th wkend

4th wk

I MISS SG!! T.T

WHY NO INTERNET CONNECTION?!?!

freaky!!

3rd day in thailand

bittersweet feelin of leavin

its comin soon..

its drawin closer!!

curses

interesting..lolx..

nice test..

something abt me..

rants and reflections..

OSIP in thailand...

torn...

its no longer the same..

left a few more days....

weird feelin 2day...

is it that difficult?

YO HO! YO HO! A PIRATE'S LIFE FOR ME!

headache headache headache.......

wad the hell is goin on around here?!!

new skin.....

oooooo drama mama...

rants....

post b4 sch starts..EEKS!! SCHOOL!! >_<

juz another day more!~

wad a wk...

14th feb..seems to be another day..

TGIF..lolx..

term test 2 nxt wk!!!!!

new day..but same old routine..

lol..paiseh nv update..

i HATE ubi-eunos area

reminiscing..(hope i spelt tt correctly >.<)

*snoozing* AGAIN! lolx..

wad a weird dream..

LONG DAY!!

MOS!! 1st clubbing exp..

OMG ITS COMIN SOON!!

Beautiful by Kelvin Fok

xmas eve is here..

POTLUCK AT EVE'S

>.< IT KEEPS RAINING!!!

rants AGAIN!!

goes crazy

snoozing AGAIN! lolx..

snooze

yawnz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

sleepy sleepy..snooze