Sunday, October 05, 2008
feelin damn sian now..bking in like a few hrs time..the feelin really sucks..noeing tt u'll b returnin to the "cursed isle" where things happen for no damn apparent reason..kena punished for no reason..being made to do exercise even after a damn freakin tiring day while other platoons r resting..sucks like shit man..juz wish these 2yrs will juz go by..fly by..best still..teleport by if possible..
it always seems tt i will go into an emo mood on bk in day..duno y..the feelin juz feels damn *bleahx*..duno how to describe it..feel like cryin? dying? juz cant b bothered? its juz so many emotions at once..quite "explosive" feelin actually..i miss the freedom i use to hav..or rather..im longing for tt freedom i use to hav..really really really hope tt i'll get an 8-5 vocation..it juz kills me to b like a "chalet" yet not "chalet" place..irks..u r expected to know everything from like 50% info and when u ask u r told u'll b briefed later (which nv happens) or u r told to use ur common sense -_- den when things not done to expectations..u kena punished..stoopid aint it? n moreover..smth happened during tis wk..where we were "accused" of smth we did not do..we r already doin our best..den smth happened to our comrade..n we r blamed for it when the punishment was not smth we asked for..long story short..i felt really angry n wronged! stoopid..guess its true..some ppl there lost their heart somewhere in the jungle! u wana motivate us? DO IT ANOTHER WAY! NOT BY MAKIN US FEEL GUILTY! bleahx..main thing..tekong sucks..army sucks..NS sucks..
but to tink of it..3wks hav come n gone..ppl say it fast..i kinda agree..yet the duration to get thru it felt longer than tt..well..on the positive note..3wks r gone..10more wks to POP..cant wait for 9/12/08..but im sooo NOT lookin forward to field camp..no bath for days..powder bath only..i tink i'll die >_< crappy shit man..wadeva..aniwae..gotta go pack for shitty army now..cant wait for the next bk out..
~can i travel thru a time machine?~