sigh..y does it happen suddenly..this stupid sick feeling juz hits me unexpectedly juz lidat..time really passes by super slowly now..i juz hope tt when sch reopens..the time will pass by slightly faster..this crawlin time thingy is juz killin me..its torturing me..everything juz feels boring..meaningless..and i juz dun feel like doin anything but juz sit and stare into space..but when i do tt..my mind wanders and i start to tink of rubbish..chinese is 想太多(think too much)..but this feeling juz comes without control..*sigh*..i juz want my life from june to come back now..tt time everything had meaning..i nv felt so full of life b4..now..its the opposite..everything is juz so worthless..i even feel worthless myself..i feel so empty inside..
to tink of things differently..positively..this is a test for me..i am tryin to do tt..but its juz so torturing and sickening..i even feel like juz breakin down and juz lock myself away in a room till tt day when i feel tt everything has meaning again..ARGH!! FUCK THIS LIFE!! IT HAS ALWAYS TURNED ON ME WHEN I AM ENJOYING IT..ITS DAMN BLOODY FUCKED UP!! ARGH!! Y CANT IT JUZ GO BY THE WAY IT WAS?!?! THE WAY EVERYTHING WAS SO GOOD IN JUNE?!?! WHY?!?! WHY?!?!WHY?!?!
i really wana hav my world back..i want everything to hav meaning again..i dun wana get this stupid relapses of these kind of feelings..i hate it..I HATE IT!! WHY THE FUCK AM I THE ONE TO BE TORMENTED?!?! WAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS?!?! WAT?!?! IS THIS SOME KIND OF JOKE?!?! WELL..IF IT IS..IT SUCKS TO THE CORE!! CRAP THIS FEELING..CRAP THIS LIFE..I WAN MY MEANINGFUL LIFE AND MY WORLD BACK!! I WAN IT BACK!! ARGH!! FREAK!! I JUZ WANA CRY BUT I CANT!! EVEN MY BODY IS MAKIN FUN OF ME?!?! WAT THE FUCK IS GOIN ON?!?! I HATE THIS..I WAN MY WORLD..I WAN EVERYTHING BACK!! I WANA FEEL FULL AGAIN!!..
~life sucks doesnt it?~
THE YOZ
YOYO!! This is moii blog!
yes its PINK..BUT..
WITH LOVELY AYU♥!!
Do tag so i noe u've been here ^_^
THE GUY
Name: Nicholas
Age: 19+
GRADUATE from Temasek Poly
Typical VIRGO..Wad u c is wad u get!
THE LOVEs & HATEs
Loves:
AYU!!!
MUSIC!!
Shopping
Hangin out with frenz
Hates:
SPIDERS!! EEKS!!
Backstabbers!!
People who love to step on my tail!!
THE WISHLIST
-Attend Ayu's concert in JAPAN!!
-Tour Japan!!
-Tour Taiwan
-Tour Korea
-Tour HK
-Own a Grandpiano
-Own a Guzheng
-Own a Saxophone
-Finish NS
-Get into NAFA
-Continue Music Theory Lessons
-Guzheng Lessons
-Buy new EARRING, HAVAIANAS, BAG, WHITE SKINNY JEANS, SHOES and BELT
