wee ping..thx for the chat last nite..i feel slightly better..i juz hope i wun snap and go into crazy mode..i mean..even MORE crazy mode.. sian..got my 2nd CDS..water tech..o well..better than management and enerprise or wateva..now bcuz of 2CDS i hav to stay back in sch till 7pm for 3days a week!! CRAP!! monday and tues from 8-7 and thurs from 9-7..sian..anyway..2day went out for lunch with timo..liked i said from my previous post..i am really glad to hav a fren like him..his company help me pass the day faster.. well..time can only go faster when i hav the company of my frenz and family now..but i still feel empty..like there is a big chunk of me missing..i feel so lost and confused..i duno wat to do..right now i am like hanging from a thread..and i already feel like this..i cant imagine wat will happen to me..IF the thread snaps and i fall..i am so afraid tt the string will snap..i can go on..i wan to go on..but i am scared tt if i make a wrong move..the string will break..and i will fall..i duno wat to do..if i stay put..i wun noe if anything will succeed or fail..but i dun wana fail..i am so scared..filled with fear..yet at the same time i feel so empty..filled with emotions but feelin empty inside...
to my frenz..i thx u for giv me the company..for helpin me pass the day at a faster speed..but i am sad to say u guys cant giv me back the large piece of me tt i hav lost..no offence..but i am really feelin very sad,lost,confused,empty etc...i duno wat to do..i hav been waiting..been tryin to put things back 2gether..i wana keep waiting and tryin..but i noe things hav their limits..i am juz so afraid tt things hav almost reach the limits..help me..i need someone to help me onto another rope..i wan tt piece of me back..i wan back wats rightfully mine which i lost with no proper reason..i am so so so empty now..all these emotions keep me from slping well and cuz of sch and stress..pimples are popping out..i dun wana get sick..if i get sick i duno wat will happen..help..i am lost..i am feeling empty..........
THE YOZ
YOYO!! This is moii blog!
yes its PINK..BUT..
WITH LOVELY AYU♥!!
Do tag so i noe u've been here ^_^
THE GUY
Name: Nicholas
Age: 19+
GRADUATE from Temasek Poly
Typical VIRGO..Wad u c is wad u get!
THE LOVEs & HATEs
Loves:
AYU!!!
MUSIC!!
Shopping
Hangin out with frenz
Hates:
SPIDERS!! EEKS!!
Backstabbers!!
People who love to step on my tail!!
THE WISHLIST
-Attend Ayu's concert in JAPAN!!
-Tour Japan!!
-Tour Taiwan
-Tour Korea
-Tour HK
-Own a Grandpiano
-Own a Guzheng
-Own a Saxophone
-Finish NS
-Get into NAFA
-Continue Music Theory Lessons
-Guzheng Lessons
-Buy new EARRING, HAVAIANAS, BAG, WHITE SKINNY JEANS, SHOES and BELT
