i really dun get it..i dun understand y its lidat..y does time slows itself down when u noe u r waiting? when it noes u r feelin down? this really sux..i tot tt sch reopenin will mean tt time will go slightly faster..nv did i noe tt it was the opposite..it slowed down slightly..i really hate this..hate this empty feeling..hate this feelin of being lost and confused..hate this feelin of being broken..fallen to pieces..i am really feelin so down now..my frenz see me smilin and laughin..but actually inside me..is juz nothin..i feel so sad..so down..so empty..this sux..
juz now when i was comin home..i received a call from my mom at 7.30..asked me if i needed a lift home..i told her i was on the way home..on the bus..dun need to pick me up..she den asked if i wanted to be picked up from the interchange..i told her no need and she asked me y..i juz so wish to say into the phone to leave me alone and giv me some time alone..but i told her nvm..i was reachin the interchange and i would need to wait if she come..so we hung up the phone..and i realised tt i wana be alone now..i dun wan anyone..it seems tt no one can put me back 2gether..a large part of me has been torn out..i wan tt part of me back..den i tink i will be able to be pieced back..i wan wats mine back so badly..i lost it cuz of stupid reasons..but i hav learnt many a lesson..and i wun repeat the same thing again..i hate myself..i hate my life..i hate everything now..everything is not as beautiful as b4 now..i feel so empty..this sux..
at the interchange..i waited for bus 32..listenin to my ipod..and my ipod being on shuffle mode..CAROLS came on..mayb its juz suay tt this song came on when i was feelin down at tt pt of time..wat made it worse was tt..it rained earlier..it was cold..when the song came on..wind blew..i felt so cold..so sad..so alone..i wanted to cry..but the tears wont flow..its juz so unfair..i felt so hurt..emptiness + cold + wrong music = not a good thing..totally wrong combination..i felt so hurt cuz i realised how lost and lonely i was..i hav lost my precious possession..a large part of me has been torn out..i hate the sick feeling..i hate life now..i hate the ugly things around me now..i want things to be beautiful and meaningful like in the past..i wan those good things in my life back..its juz so unfair..it juz feels like life is makin fun of me now..i hate it..this sux..
~everything seems to suck now...~
THE YOZ
YOYO!! This is moii blog!
yes its PINK..BUT..
WITH LOVELY AYU♥!!
Do tag so i noe u've been here ^_^
THE GUY
Name: Nicholas
Age: 19+
GRADUATE from Temasek Poly
Typical VIRGO..Wad u c is wad u get!
THE LOVEs & HATEs
Loves:
AYU!!!
MUSIC!!
Shopping
Hangin out with frenz
Hates:
SPIDERS!! EEKS!!
Backstabbers!!
People who love to step on my tail!!
THE WISHLIST
-Attend Ayu's concert in JAPAN!!
-Tour Japan!!
-Tour Taiwan
-Tour Korea
-Tour HK
-Own a Grandpiano
-Own a Guzheng
-Own a Saxophone
-Finish NS
-Get into NAFA
-Continue Music Theory Lessons
-Guzheng Lessons
-Buy new EARRING, HAVAIANAS, BAG, WHITE SKINNY JEANS, SHOES and BELT
