bonsoir! (good evening) lolx..learnin french in sch mah..so for fun..anyway..went out for dinner with sj,tim,kit and alvin den went starbucks and crap..but b4 i met tim at bedok inter to go sj's place..i went to buy the feet spray thingy from body shop..seems tt now when i wear my birkens and my feet sweat..it leaves a bad "shoe smell"..*eeeewwwwwwww*..lolx..anyway..i bought the lemongrass scent..cuz it smell so much better than the peppermint one..only got 2 to choose from sia..so lousy..XD..den after tt went to sj's place to tok tok while waitin for kit and alvin to come down to siglap..while crapping i was busy usin the scissors to like poke a hole in my left thumbnail and my right baby fingernail..now all i need is something to hang..mayb a nice cool earring or something..lolx..i plannin to go cosplayin with charmaine (tp classmate) as a goth..hehe..juz tt i need to make my own costume la..and i need $$$..which i dun hav much now.. T.T sigh..so sian..nxt wk 3rd wk of sch..and i hav quizzes liao..i am like so dead..i havent been payin much attention in the lectures (as always..XD)..life now is like sssssoooooooo boring!! sch is such a bore..everything i do now like so boring sia..like no meaning lidat..haiz..wat to do wat to do...i hav nv felt so lost b4...all i noe now is tt i hav to carry on with life..and juz be prepared for anything tt will juz appear in front of me..life life life..y r u so uncertain..is tt y ppl treasure u?? y r u like playin a trick on me now?? sigh..is this my destiny? isit fate for this to happen to me? am i suppose to take this plunge in life and be picked back up?? this is so sickenin..this feelin..although its subsiding day by day..gettin less and less..but i still feel so confused..so lost..i feel like i am wearin a mask..a mask which hides my feelings from the world around me..a mask which absorbs my pain and sorrow only to show off happiness..a mask which i only remove when i am alone..and i will suddenly feel tt emptiness in life..tt confusion and sense of feelin lost..tots fill my head..only to leave me havin nitemares or slpless hours..i wana let go..but not totally..i duno y..it seems i juz cant..i juz am not able to let everything go..i juz wish someone can fill me up again..get me out from this pit in life..sigh..life u r so unfair..i feel like u r makin fun of me..hurtin me and pushin me lower into ur pits (i mean like the ups and downs of life..)..i hate u..cant u juz make me feel happy again..show me wat is love and how isit like to feel full and happy again!! i wan meanin in my life again..sigh..i keep repeatin this over and over..it sounds to monotonous..but..tts wat i really wan now..i juz wan someone to come to get me out from this shitty pit of life..the pit where it sucks and put me up where is the "up part of life"..i was there..until when everything started to go downwards..and it took a sudden plunge..i guess i hav to get on with life..let time heal my wound and settle things down..i really hope i can be up high there again..where everything was beautiful and had meaning...*sigh*... ~the hidden frown..too many things happened at once and they brought pain and sadness which i hav to hide~
THE YOZ
YOYO!! This is moii blog!
yes its PINK..BUT..
WITH LOVELY AYU♥!!
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THE GUY
Name: Nicholas
Age: 19+
GRADUATE from Temasek Poly
Typical VIRGO..Wad u c is wad u get!
THE LOVEs & HATEs
Loves:
AYU!!!
MUSIC!!
Shopping
Hangin out with frenz
Hates:
SPIDERS!! EEKS!!
Backstabbers!!
People who love to step on my tail!!
THE WISHLIST
-Attend Ayu's concert in JAPAN!!
-Tour Japan!!
-Tour Taiwan
-Tour Korea
-Tour HK
-Own a Grandpiano
-Own a Guzheng
-Own a Saxophone
-Finish NS
-Get into NAFA
-Continue Music Theory Lessons
-Guzheng Lessons
-Buy new EARRING, HAVAIANAS, BAG, WHITE SKINNY JEANS, SHOES and BELT
